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All The Names - Jose Saramago

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Contrary to what people might think when viewing these things from the outside, life is not necessarily<br />

easy in a government department, certainly not in this Central Registry of Births, Marriages and Deaths,<br />

where, since time which cannot be described as immemorial simply because the Registry contains a<br />

record of everything and everyone, thanks to the persistent efforts of an unbroken Une of great Registrars,<br />

all that is most sublime and most trivial about public office has been brought together, the qualities that<br />

make of the civil servant a creature apart, both usufructuary and dependent of the physical and mental<br />

space defined by the reach of his pen nib. Put simply, and with a view in this preamble to a more exact<br />

understanding of the general facts considered in the abstract, Senhor José has a problem to solve.<br />

Knowing how difficult it had been to squeeze out of the rule-bound reluctance of the hierarchy one<br />

miserable half hour off, which meant that he was not caught in flagrante by the husband of the young<br />

woman in the second-floor apartment, we can imagine his current distress as, night and day, he racks his<br />

brain for some convincing excuse that would allow him to ask for not one hour, but two, not two, but three<br />

hours, which is probably the amount of time he will need if he is to carry out a useful search of the<br />

schools archives. <strong>The</strong> effects of this constant, obsessive disquiet soon revealed themselves in mistakes at<br />

work, in lack of attention, in sudden bouts of drowsiness during the day due to insomnia, in short, Senhor<br />

José, until then considered by his various superiors to be a competent, methodical and dedicated civil<br />

servant, began to be the object of severe warnings, reprimands and calls to order that only served to<br />

confuse him all the more, and, needless to say, the way he was carrying on, he could be absolutely sure of<br />

a negative response if, at some point, he could actually bring himself to ask for the longed-for time off.<br />

Things reached such a pitch that, after fruitless analysis by senior clerks and deputies in turn, they had no<br />

option but to bring the matter to the notice of the Registrar, who, at first, found the whole business so<br />

absurd that he could not understand what all the fuss was about. <strong>The</strong> fact that a civil servant should have<br />

so grievously neglected his duties made any benevolent tendency towards reaching an exculpatory<br />

decision impossible, it constituted a grave offence against the working traditions of the Central Registry,<br />

something that could only be justified by some grave illness. When the delinquent was brought into his<br />

presence, that was exactly what the Registrar asked Senhor José, Are you ill, I don't think so, sir, Well, if<br />

you're not ill, how do you explain your recent poor standard of work, I don't know, sir, perhaps it's<br />

because I haven't been sleeping well, In that case, you are ill, No, it's just that I'm not sleeping very well,<br />

If you're not sleeping well, it's because you're ill, a healthy person always sleeps well, unless he has<br />

something weighing on his conscience, some reprehensible mistake, the sort that your conscience cannot<br />

forgive, for conscience is most important, Yes, sir, If your errors at work are caused by insomnia and if<br />

your insomnia is being caused by a guilty conscience, then we have to discover what your mistake was, I<br />

haven't made any mistakes, sir, Impossible, the only person here who doesn't make mistakes is me but<br />

what's wrong, why are you staring at the telephone book, Sorry, sir, I got distracted, A bad sign, you know<br />

perfectly well that you must always look at me when I'm talking to you, it's in the disciplinary regulations,<br />

I'm the only one who has the right to look away, Yes, sir, Now what was your mistake, I don't know, sir,<br />

That only makes matters worse, forgotten mistakes are always the worst ones, I've fulfilled all my duties,<br />

<strong>The</strong> information I have regarding your conduct is satisfactory, but that only serves to show that your recent<br />

poor professional performance was not the consequence of some forgotten mistake, but of a recent<br />

mistake, one you have only just made, My conscience is clear, Consciences keep silent more often than<br />

they should, that's why laws were created, Yes, sir, Now I have to make a decision, Yes, sir, Indeed, I<br />

already have, Yes, sir, I'm giving you a day's suspension, Is that just a suspension of salary, sir, or is it<br />

also a suspension from work, asked Senhor José, seeing a glimmer of hope, Of salary, of course, we can't

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