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<strong>High</strong> <strong>Fidelity</strong><br />
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6/20/2006<br />
silly and girly; she said I didn’t want to think of them in the same way that I thought about my mates.<br />
She was right, of course—I don’t. But that’s not the point. Barry doesn’t do this to strike a blow for<br />
equality: he does it because he’s being spiteful, because he wants to puncture any sense of romantic<br />
well-being that Laura or Anna or whoever might have created in us. He’s sharp, Barry. Sharp and nasty.<br />
He understands the power that girls’ names have, and he doesn’t like it.<br />
“Is she all green and furry”<br />
This started out joky—Barry as demon counsel for the prosecution, Dick as defendant—but now those<br />
roles have started to harden. Dick looks guilty as all hell, and all he’s done is meet someone.<br />
“Leave it, Barry,” I tell him.<br />
“Oh, yeah, you would say that, wouldn’t you You two have got to stick together now. Shaggers<br />
United, eh”<br />
I try to be patient with him. “Are you coming to the pub or what”<br />
“No. Bollocks.”<br />
“Fair enough.”<br />
Barry leaves; Dick is now feeling guilty, not because he’s met someone, but because I have nobody to<br />
drink with.<br />
“I suppose I’ve got time for a quick one.”<br />
“Don’t worry about it, Dick. It’s not your fault that Barry’s a jerk. You have a nice evening.”<br />
He flashes me a look of real gratitude, and it breaks your heart.<br />
I feel as though I have been having conversations like this all my life. None of us is young anymore,<br />
but what has just taken place could have happened when I was sixteen, or twenty, or twenty-five. We<br />
got to adolescence and just stopped dead; we drew up the map then and left the boundaries exactly as<br />
they were. And why does it bother Barry so much that Dick is seeing someone Because he doesn’t<br />
want a smile from a man with buckteeth and an anorak in the cinema queue, that’s why; he’s worried<br />
about how his life is turning out, and he’s lonely, and lonely people are the bitterest of them all.<br />
Fourteen<br />
Ever since I’ve had the shop, we’ve been trying to flog a record by a group called the Sid James<br />
Experience. Usually we get rid of stuff we can’t shift—reduce it to 10p, or throw it away—but Barry<br />
loves this album (he’s got two copies of his own, just in case somebody borrows one and fails to return<br />
it), and he says it’s rare, and that someday we’ll make somebody very happy. It’s become a bit of a joke,<br />
really. Regular customers ask after its health, and give it a friendly pat when they’re browsing, and<br />
sometimes they bring the sleeve up to the counter as if they’re going to buy it, and then say “Just<br />
kidding!” and put it back where they found it.<br />
Anyway, on Friday morning, this guy I’ve never seen before starts flicking through the ‘British Pop S-<br />
Z section,’ lets out a gasp of amazement and rushes up to the counter, clutching the sleeve to his chest as<br />
if he’s afraid someone will snatch it from him. And then he gets out his wallet and pays for it, seven<br />
quid, just like that, no attempt to haggle, no recognition of the significance of what he is doing. I let<br />
Barry serve him—it’s his moment—and Dick and I watch every move, holding our breath; it’s like<br />
someone has walked in, tipped petrol over himself, and produced a box of matches from his pocket. We<br />
don’t exhale until he’s struck the match and set himself alight, and when he’s gone we laugh and laugh<br />
and laugh. It gives us all strength: if someone can just walk in and buy the Sid James Experience album,<br />
then surely anything good can happen at any time.<br />
Laura’s changed even since I last saw her. Partly it’s the makeup: she’s wearing it for work, and it<br />
makes her look less stressed-out, less tired, in control. But it’s more than that, too. Something else has<br />
happened, maybe something real, or maybe something in her head. Whatever it is, you can see that she<br />
thinks she’s started out on some new stage in her life. She hasn’t. I’m not going to let her.