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<strong>High</strong> <strong>Fidelity</strong><br />
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Page 81 of 112<br />
6/20/2006<br />
“I haven’t seen he Big Chill, have I”<br />
“You lying bastard. You saw it in a Lawrence Kasdan double bill with Body Heat.”<br />
“Oh, yeah. But I’d forgotten about that, honestly. I wasn’t just nicking the idea.”<br />
“Not much.”<br />
And so on.<br />
I try again later.<br />
“ ‘Abraham, Martin, and John,’ ” says Dick.<br />
“That’s quite a nice one.”<br />
“What was Laura’s dad’s name”<br />
“Ken.”<br />
“ ‘Abraham, Martin, John, and Ken.’ Nah, I can’t see”<br />
“Fuck off.”<br />
“Black Sabbath Nirvana They’re all into death.”<br />
Thus is Ken’s passing mourned at Championship Vinyl.<br />
I have thought about the stuff I want played at my funeral, although I could never list it to anyone,<br />
because they’d die laughing. ‘One Love’ by Bob Marley; ‘Many Rivers to Cross’ by Jimmy Cliff;<br />
‘Angel’ by Aretha Franklin. And I’ve always had this fantasy that someone beautiful and tearful will<br />
insist on ‘You’re the Best Thing That Ever Happened to Me’ by Gladys Knight, but I can’t imagine who<br />
that beautiful, tearful person will be. But that’s my funeral, as they say, and I can afford to be generous<br />
and sentimental about it. It doesn’t alter the point that Barry made, even if he didn’t know he was<br />
making it: we have about seven squillion hours’ worth of recorded music in here, and there’s hardly a<br />
minute of it that describes the way Laura’s feeling now.<br />
I’ve got one suit, dark gray, last worn at a wedding three years ago. It doesn’t fit too well now, in all<br />
the obvious places, but it’ll have to do. I iron my white shirt and find a tie that isn’t made of leather and<br />
doesn’t have saxophones all over it, and wait for Liz to come and pick me up. I haven’t got anything to<br />
take with me—the cards in the newsagent’s were all vile. They looked like the sort of thing the Addams<br />
Family would send to each other on their birthdays. I wish I’d been to a funeral before. One of my<br />
grandfathers died before I was born, and the other when I was very little; both my grandmothers are still<br />
alive, if you can call it that, but I never see them. One lives in a home, the other lives with Aunty Eileen,<br />
my dad’s sister. And when they do die it will hardly be the end of the world. Just, you know, wow, stop<br />
press, extremely ancient person dies. And though I’ve got friends who have friends who’ve died—a gay<br />
guy that Laura was at college with got Aids, a mate of my mate Paul was killed in a motorbike crash,<br />
and loads of them have lost parents—it’s something I’ve always managed to put off. Now I can see that<br />
it’s something I’ll be doing for the rest of my life. Two grans, Mum and Dad, aunts and uncles, and,<br />
unless I’m the first person in my immediate circle to go, loads of people my age, eventually—maybe<br />
even sooner than eventually, given that one or two of them are bound to cop it before they’re supposed<br />
to. Once I start to think about it, it seems terribly oppressive, as though I’ll be going to three or four a<br />
week for the next forty years, and I won’t have the time or the inclination to do anything else. How do<br />
people cope Do you have to go What happens if you refuse on the grounds of it being just too fucking<br />
grim (“I’m sorry for you and everything, Laura, but it’s not really my scene, you know”) I don’t think<br />
I can bear to get any older than I already am, and I begin to develop a grudging admiration for my<br />
parents, just because they’ve been to scores of funerals and have never really moaned about it, not to<br />
me, anyway. Perhaps they just don’t have the imagination to see that funerals are actually even more<br />
depressing than they look.<br />
If I’m honest, I’m only going because it might do me some good in the long run. Can you get off with<br />
your ex-girlfriend at her father’s funeral I wouldn’t have thought so. But you never know.<br />
“So the vicar says nice things, and then, what, we all troop outside and they bury him”<br />
Liz is talking me through it.