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<strong>High</strong> <strong>Fidelity</strong><br />
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Page 78 of 112<br />
6/20/2006<br />
“It’s not that bad. There were only two of them.”<br />
She looks at me to see if I’m joking. When she laughs, it’s clear that I am.<br />
“But it was your birthday.”<br />
“Well. You know.”<br />
“Your birthday. And that’s the best you can do”<br />
“Say it was your birthday today, and you wanted to go out for a drink tonight. Who would you invite<br />
Dick and Barry T-Bone Me We’re not your bestest friends in the whole world, are we”<br />
“Come on, Rob. I’m not even in my own country. I’m thousands of miles from home.”<br />
My point exactly.<br />
I watch the couples that come into the shop, and the couples I see in pubs, and on buses, and through<br />
windows. Some of them, the ones that talk and touch and laugh and inquire a lot, are obviously new, and<br />
they don’t count: like most people, I’m OK at being half of a new couple. It’s the more established,<br />
quieter couples, the ones who have started to go through life back-to-back or side-to-side, rather than<br />
face-to-face, that interest me.<br />
There’s not much you can decipher in their faces, really. There’s not much that sets them apart from<br />
single people; try dividing people you walk past into one of life’s four categories—happily coupled,<br />
unhappily coupled, single, and desperate—and you’ll find you won’t be able to do it. Or rather, you<br />
could do it, but you would have no confidence in your choices. This seems incredible to me. The most<br />
important thing in life, and you can’t tell whether people have it or not. Surely this is wrong Surely<br />
people who are happy should look happy, at all times, no matter how much money they have or how<br />
uncomfortable their shoes are or how little their child is sleeping; and people who are doing OK but<br />
have still not found their soul mate should look, I don’t know, well but anxious, like Billy Crystal in<br />
When Harry Met Sally; and people who are desperate should wear something, a yellow ribbon maybe,<br />
which would allow them to be identified by similarly desperate people. When I am no longer desperate,<br />
when I have got all this sorted out, I promise you here and now that I will never ever complain again<br />
about how the shop is doing, or about the soullessness of modern pop music, or the stingy fillings you<br />
get in the sandwich bar up the road (£1.60 for egg mayonnaise and crispy bacon, and none of us have<br />
ever had more than four pieces of crispy bacon in a whole round yet) or anything at all. I will beam<br />
beatifically at all times, just from sheer relief.<br />
Nothing much, by which I mean even less than usual, happens for a couple of weeks. I find a copy of<br />
‘All Kinds of Everything’ in a junk shop near the flat, and buy it for fifteen pence, and give it to Johnny<br />
next time I see him, on the proviso that he fuck off and leave us alone forever. He comes in the next day<br />
complaining that it’s scratched and demanding his money back. Barrytown make a triumphant debut at<br />
the Harry Lauder, and rock the place off its foundations, and the buzz is incredible, and there are loads<br />
of people there who look like A&R men, and they go absolutely mental, and honestly Rob, you should<br />
have been there (Marie just laughs, when I ask her about it, and says that everyone has to start<br />
somewhere). Dick tries to get me to make up a foursome with him, Anna, and a friend of Anna’s who’s<br />
twenty-one, but I don’t go; we see Marie play at a folk club in Farringdon, and I think about Laura a lot<br />
more than I think about Marie during the sad songs, even though Marie dedicates a song to ‘the guys at<br />
Championship Vinyl’; I go for a drink with Liz and she bitches about Ray the whole evening, which is<br />
great; and then Laura’s dad dies, and everything changes.<br />
Twenty-Five<br />
I hear about it on the same morning she does. I ring her number from the shop, intending just to leave<br />
a message on her machine; it’s easier that way, and I only wanted to tell her about some ex-colleague<br />
who left a message for her on our machine. My machine. Her machine, actually, if we’re talking legal<br />
ownership. Anyway. I wasn’t expecting Laura to pick up the phone, but she does, and she sounds as