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<strong>High</strong> <strong>Fidelity</strong><br />
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6/20/2006<br />
always was a girl for sensible clothes, but what she’s wearing tonight—a big floral dress, a beige<br />
raincoat—pushes sensible over the edge toward death. “What’s that cool guy in the leather jacket doing<br />
with Virginia Bottomley’s elder sister” the audience is thinking. Probably.)<br />
We go to this Italian place she knows, and they know her, too, and they do vulgar things with the<br />
pepper grinder that seem to amuse her. It’s often the way that people who take their work seriously<br />
laugh at stupid jokes; it’s as if they are under-humored and, as a consequence, suffer from premature<br />
laugh-ejaculation. But she’s OK, really. She’s a good sort, a good sport, and it’s easy to talk about Chris<br />
Thomson and knobbing. I just launch into it, with no real explanation.<br />
I try to tell the story in a lighthearted, self-deprecatory way (it’s about me, not him and her), but she’s<br />
appalled, really disgusted: she puts her knife and fork down and looks away, and I can see that she’s<br />
close to tears.<br />
“Bastard,” she says. “I wish you hadn’t told me that.”<br />
“I’m sorry. I just thought, you know, long time ago and all that.”<br />
“Well, it obviously doesn’t seem that long ago to you.”<br />
Fair point.<br />
“No. But I just thought I was weird.”<br />
“Why this sudden need to tell me about it, anyway”<br />
I shrug. “Dunno. Just … ”<br />
And then I show her that, on the contrary, I do know: I tell her about Laura and Ian (although I don’t<br />
tell her about Marie or money or abortions or pain-in-the-arse Rosie) and about Charlie, maybe more<br />
about Charlie than she wants to know; and I try to explain to her that I feel like the Rejection Man, and<br />
that Charlie wanted to sleep with Marco and not me, and Laura wanted to sleep with Ian and not me, and<br />
Alison Ashworth, even all those years ago, wanted to snog with Kevin Bannister and not me (although I<br />
do share with her my recent discovery about the invincibility of fate), and that as she, Penny, wanted to<br />
sleep with Chris Thomson and not me, perhaps she would be able to help me understand why it kept<br />
happening, why I was apparently doomed to be left.<br />
And she tells me, with great force, with venom, frankly speaking, about what she remembers: that she<br />
was mad about me, that she wanted to sleep with me, one day, but not when she was sixteen, and that<br />
when I packed her in—“When you packed me in,” she repeats, furiously, “because I was, to use your<br />
charming expression, ‘tight,’ I cried and cried, and I hated you. And then that little shitbag asked me out,<br />
and I was too tired to fight him off, and it wasn’t rape, because I said OK, but it wasn’t far off. And I<br />
didn’t have sex with anyone else until after university because I hated it so much. And now you want to<br />
have a chat about rejection. Well, fuck you, Rob.”<br />
So that’s another one I don’t have to worry about. I should have done this years ago.<br />
Eighteen<br />
Sellotaped to the inside of the shop door is a handwritten notice, yellowed and faded with age. It reads<br />
as follows:<br />
HIP YOUNG SINGERS WANTED (BASS, DRUMS GUITAR) FOR NEW BAND.<br />
MUST BE INTO REM, PRIMAL SCREAM, FANCLUB ETC. CONTACT BARRY IN<br />
THE SHOP.<br />
The advertisement used to end with the intimidating postscript ‘no slackers please,’ but after a<br />
disappointing response during the first couple of years of the recruitment drive, Barry decided that<br />
slackers were welcome after all, to no noticeable effect; perhaps they couldn’t get it together to walk<br />
from the door to the counter. A while back, a guy with a set of drums made inquiries, and though this<br />
minimalist vocal/drums two-piece did rehearse a few times (no tapes survive, sadly), Barry eventually<br />
and perhaps wisely decided that he needed a fuller sound.