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74<br />
The Way of the Explorer<br />
to do was monitor the spacecraft systems, which were functioning perfectly.<br />
Now there was time to quietly contemplate the journey. I could lie<br />
back in weightlessness and watch the slow progress of the heavens through<br />
the module window. My mind ebbed into that quiet state I had longed for<br />
on our trek to the rim of Cone Crater. There was a vast tranquility, a<br />
growing sense of wonder as I looked out the window, but not a hint of<br />
what was about to happen.<br />
Perhaps it was the disorienting, or reorienting, effect of a rotating<br />
environment, while the heavens and Earth tumbled alternately in and out<br />
of view in the small capsule window. Perhaps it was the air of safety and<br />
sanctuary after a two-day foray into an unforgiving environment. But I<br />
don’t think so. The sensation was altogether foreign. Somehow I felt tuned<br />
into something much larger than myself, something much larger than the<br />
planet in the window. Something incomprehensibly big. Even today, the<br />
perceptions still baffle me.<br />
Much of my thought and feeling at the time has since undergone a<br />
process of alchemy. Contemplation and the process of resurrecting memories<br />
has perhaps served to illuminate the shadows of such a peculiar event,<br />
but the tableau is so vivid as to have lost none of its clarity. It looms in my<br />
memory with extraordinary resolution. There was the initial awareness<br />
that the planet in the window harbored much strife and discord beneath<br />
the blue and white atmosphere, a peaceful and inviting appearance. On a<br />
small peninsula of Southeast Asia, a brutal civil war was being waged within<br />
the thin canopy of foliage. This was a war that commanded the attention<br />
of another country defined by invisible borders on the other side of the<br />
planet. I knew that my younger brother and his Air Force colleagues were<br />
flying their missions there. Then, looking beyond the Earth itself to the<br />
magnificence of the larger scene, there was a startling recognition that the<br />
nature of the universe was not as I had been taught. My understanding of<br />
the separate distinctness and the relative independence of movement of<br />
those cosmic bodies was shattered. There was an upwelling of fresh insight<br />
coupled with a feeling of ubiquitous harmony—a sense of interconnectedness<br />
with the celestial bodies surrounding our spacecraft. Particular scientific<br />
facts about stellar evolution took on new significance.<br />
This wasn’t a religious or otherworldly experience, though many have<br />
tried to cast similar events in that mold. Nor was it a totally new scientific<br />
understanding, of which I had suddenly become aware. It was just a pointer,<br />
a signpost showing the direction toward new viewpoints and greater understanding.<br />
The human being is part of a continuously evolving process, a<br />
more grand and intelligent process than classical science and the religious<br />
traditions have been able to correctly describe. I was part of a larger natural<br />
process than I’d previously understood, one that was all around me in<br />
this command module as it sped toward Earth through 240,000 miles of<br />
empty black space.