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Sea of Grass 33<br />
description of reality in order to better understand it. Reality was there,<br />
somewhere, in the form of an intricate landscape to be explored and understood.<br />
But l came across those who thought the exactness of the mathematical<br />
approach was actually embedded in nature. They believed that<br />
only by reducing nature to its bare elements and uncovering the inherent<br />
mathematics could one gain true insight into the territory they chose to<br />
explore. Only the mathematics could point to the next step. These were<br />
brilliant scholars, but we stood at opposite intellectual poles. There seemed<br />
to be something stirring my intellectual vision, perhaps my own intuition<br />
guiding me in another direction. What came to me most naturally was an<br />
understanding of synthesis, the relationships and patterns existing across<br />
disparate disciplines of thought, not the tedious process of splitting intellectual<br />
hairs.<br />
Life in these days was stimulating and varied. At night I would come<br />
home from campus, weary but happy, to a young and noisy household. In<br />
the last month of summer we retreated to the coast of Cape Cod, and in<br />
the winter we all would ice skate upon a makeshift pond I fashioned out of<br />
lengths of wood and plastic, and filled with water from a garden hose (the<br />
local ponds for skating were considered too dangerous for children). Once<br />
a month I headed out to a Navy air field just south of Boston and climbed<br />
into the seat of a plane in order to maintain a certain level of proficiency.<br />
By dusk I was back in the lap of domesticity. These were good times in<br />
almost every way, but Louise and I were having more difficulties, as the<br />
silent traumas of being the wife of a test pilot who aspired to be an astronaut<br />
were starting to mount. And I was too ignorant, preoccupied, and<br />
simply too insensitive to understand her plight. It never occurred to me, as<br />
I forged my own role in this male-dominated world, that I was displaying<br />
many of the rigid characteristics of my patriarchal grandfather. My military<br />
service had been the result of circumstance, but I’d unexpectedly<br />
found a home there. Louise faithfully and lovingly supported my ambitions<br />
and stabilized the family. Such dreams might lead to glory or widowhood,<br />
and she and the children were silently in need of stability and<br />
tranquility.<br />
Precisely what an astronaut did and what he would face in the vast<br />
frontier of space was still a looming unknown, not only to the public at<br />
large, but to those of us in the space industry as well. The challenge was<br />
exhilarating, but the sheer lack of convention in our lives was at times a<br />
burden. We had never been firmly grounded in any of the communities<br />
we’d breezed into and out of after our brief tenure had expired. We were<br />
always off to another distant setting so that I could further my understanding<br />
of what I might find, were I ever to make that climb into space one<br />
day. I was pushing my family from one venue to the next so that I might<br />
fulfill the most exotic of dreams—that of being an explorer in the latter