jewish ROOTS14 Summer 2006<strong>The</strong>re andBack Aga<strong>in</strong>Integrat<strong>in</strong>g My Buddhist Practiceand <strong>Jewish</strong> <strong>Roots</strong>By Louis WeissMy roots <strong>in</strong> Conservative Judaism were established <strong>in</strong> <strong>the</strong> smallMidwestern <strong>to</strong>wn I grew up <strong>in</strong>. It was a <strong>to</strong>wn that didn’t understandor <strong>to</strong>lerate “o<strong>the</strong>rs.” <strong>The</strong> local parochial schools taught myneighbors that Jews were responsible for kill<strong>in</strong>g Jesus and were<strong>to</strong> be treated as outsiders. My days at school and play<strong>in</strong>g <strong>in</strong> <strong>the</strong>streets always required a defensive awareness. So <strong>the</strong> synagoguebecame a true sanctuary for me. Each day after school I went <strong>to</strong> <strong>the</strong>synagogue, spread my homework out on <strong>the</strong> sanctuary floor, andfound comfort <strong>in</strong> learn<strong>in</strong>g about <strong>the</strong> world beyond my daily experiencefrom with<strong>in</strong> <strong>the</strong> protective peace and quiet of that dim, mustyspace. I adhered <strong>to</strong> <strong>the</strong> ritual of Conservative Judaism because itworked for me. I learned, I recited, I prayed, and I hid out.<strong>The</strong>n <strong>in</strong> <strong>the</strong> 1960s I left <strong>to</strong>wn and went <strong>to</strong> college; <strong>the</strong>re Ilearned that God had died while I was en route. Those years allowedme <strong>to</strong> develop a social consciousness, an awareness of spirituality,and a glimpse at <strong>the</strong> diversity of <strong>the</strong> world. Conservative Judaismdidn’t work for me anymore.In <strong>the</strong> late ‘70s and early ‘80s my kids came along. I wanted<strong>the</strong>m <strong>to</strong> have a religious identity and education, so I became a“pediatric” Jew. I did it for <strong>the</strong> sake of <strong>the</strong> kids. <strong>The</strong> <strong>Jewish</strong> ReconstructionistCongregation was <strong>in</strong> my neighborhood and I knewa number of o<strong>the</strong>r families who sent <strong>the</strong>ir kids <strong>to</strong> <strong>the</strong> religiousschool <strong>the</strong>re. So I jo<strong>in</strong>ed.All Th<strong>in</strong>gs That Brea<strong>the</strong>I had stumbled <strong>in</strong><strong>to</strong> a community that would become a centralpart of my life, my identity, and my spiritual well-be<strong>in</strong>g. Reconstructionismis a new sect of Judaism that recognizes that ritualmust be preserved <strong>to</strong> ma<strong>in</strong>ta<strong>in</strong> an identity as a Jew but it must notsegregate us from <strong>the</strong> world. In Reconstructionism, egalitarianismreplaces <strong>the</strong> paternalistic focus of <strong>Jewish</strong> practice. More important<strong>to</strong> me, it emphasizes <strong>the</strong> need <strong>to</strong> be engaged <strong>in</strong> socially relevantactivities <strong>in</strong> <strong>the</strong> broader community. In Reconstructionist JudaismGod is unders<strong>to</strong>od as <strong>the</strong> life force, <strong>in</strong> fact, <strong>the</strong> very breath thatsusta<strong>in</strong>s life <strong>in</strong> all forms on this planet—and probably <strong>the</strong> universe.<strong>The</strong> prayer book we use is called <strong>in</strong> Hebrew “Kol Haneshamah”or “All liv<strong>in</strong>g th<strong>in</strong>gs” (literally, all th<strong>in</strong>gs that brea<strong>the</strong>).In 1999, after many discussions aboutth<strong>in</strong>gs most important <strong>to</strong> us, my wife Vicki<strong>in</strong>vited me <strong>to</strong> read <strong>The</strong> Miracle of M<strong>in</strong>dfulnessand <strong>to</strong> jo<strong>in</strong> her at Lakeside Buddhist Sangha formeditation. Thay’s teach<strong>in</strong>g resonated stronglywith my own emotional and spiritual experience.I became a regular on Sunday night forsitt<strong>in</strong>g and walk<strong>in</strong>g meditation and dharmatalks. I participated <strong>in</strong> days of m<strong>in</strong>dfulnessand weekend retreats. As I read books by Thayand o<strong>the</strong>r contemporary Western Buddhists, Ibecame aware of several th<strong>in</strong>gs. One was thatThay’s teach<strong>in</strong>gs of engaged Buddhism feltmuch like <strong>the</strong> engaged Judaism I had beenaffiliated with for <strong>the</strong> past twenty years. Ano<strong>the</strong>rwas that Buddhist teach<strong>in</strong>gs were verysupportive of and based <strong>in</strong> <strong>the</strong> pr<strong>in</strong>ciples ofpsychology I use <strong>in</strong> my professional and personal life. And manyof <strong>the</strong> Western Buddhist teachers I was read<strong>in</strong>g were Jews!My Neighbor Is MyselfRegular attendance at <strong>the</strong> Sangha made me yearn for moreof an engagement <strong>in</strong> my <strong>Jewish</strong> practice as well. I had worked onSaturdays for all of my professional life, but began <strong>to</strong> feel stronglyabout hav<strong>in</strong>g a regular day of m<strong>in</strong>dfulness. I decided <strong>to</strong> s<strong>to</strong>p workon Saturdays and <strong>to</strong> attend Shabbat services and Torah study eachweek at <strong>the</strong> synagogue. Now I have two spiritual communities <strong>to</strong>share and support my meditation practice and my engagement <strong>in</strong><strong>the</strong> larger world.Hav<strong>in</strong>g taken and retaken <strong>the</strong> Five M<strong>in</strong>dfulness Tra<strong>in</strong><strong>in</strong>gs,received a dharma name, and read and chanted sutras with mywonderful Sangha community, I began <strong>to</strong> th<strong>in</strong>k about <strong>the</strong> pr<strong>in</strong>ciplesof Judaism that Reconstructionism asserts <strong>in</strong> <strong>the</strong> context ofm<strong>in</strong>dfulness, breath practice, <strong>the</strong> concept of oneness and no-self,and <strong>the</strong> immeasurable value of belong<strong>in</strong>g <strong>to</strong> a spiritual community.I have learned <strong>to</strong> read <strong>the</strong> Old Testament from a perspective offaith <strong>in</strong> community, right speech, right livelihood, right th<strong>in</strong>k<strong>in</strong>g,and o<strong>the</strong>r aspects of <strong>the</strong> Eightfold Path. To me <strong>the</strong> admonition ofDeuteronomy <strong>to</strong> “Love your neighbor as yourself ” isn’t aboutlov<strong>in</strong>g ano<strong>the</strong>r person <strong>in</strong> <strong>the</strong> way you love yourself. Ra<strong>the</strong>r it is arem<strong>in</strong>der that my neighbor is myself.<strong>The</strong> central prayer of all <strong>Jewish</strong> practice is “Shema Yisroel.Adonay Elohenu Adonay Echad.” or “Hear oh Israel, <strong>the</strong> Lordour God <strong>the</strong> Lord is One.” When unders<strong>to</strong>od <strong>in</strong> Reconstructionistterms—God as <strong>the</strong> life force <strong>in</strong> us and <strong>in</strong> <strong>the</strong> universe—thisdoesn’t just put a stamp on mono<strong>the</strong>ism, it is a rem<strong>in</strong>der that weare all one with each o<strong>the</strong>r, <strong>the</strong> natural world, and <strong>the</strong> spirit thatsusta<strong>in</strong>s life.Now where have I heard that before?Louis Weiss, Diligent Inclusiveness of <strong>the</strong> Heart,is a member of Lakeside Buddha Sangha <strong>in</strong>Evans<strong>to</strong>n, Ill<strong>in</strong>ois and a cl<strong>in</strong>ical psychologist.
wonderful MOMENTI Ate <strong>the</strong> Cosmosfor LunchI ate <strong>the</strong> cosmos for lunchAnd <strong>the</strong>n aga<strong>in</strong> for d<strong>in</strong>nerWhat will I tell my friends?I noticed that I am bigger now <strong>to</strong>o—More <strong>to</strong> me than I thought.Not only is my Mom <strong>in</strong>side me,And that would be enough.I also have my Dad, blood ances<strong>to</strong>rs andSpiritual ances<strong>to</strong>rs.<strong>The</strong> Sangha, m<strong>in</strong>dfulness tra<strong>in</strong><strong>in</strong>gs,Thay and <strong>the</strong> Buddha.<strong>The</strong>re’s more <strong>to</strong>o.Like <strong>the</strong> Forest I lived <strong>in</strong> for five years,Walk<strong>in</strong>g home on a dirt road <strong>in</strong> <strong>the</strong> moonlight,Or moonless night, <strong>to</strong> a r<strong>in</strong>g of redwoodsWhere I made my home.And freight tra<strong>in</strong>s, as <strong>the</strong>y creak and groanLike monsters wak<strong>in</strong>g up,As <strong>the</strong>y start mov<strong>in</strong>g down <strong>the</strong> tracks,Tak<strong>in</strong>g my friends and me on adventures across <strong>the</strong>country.And my fel<strong>in</strong>e friend who started sleep<strong>in</strong>g over on hisownAnd stayed with me for four years.<strong>The</strong> list is quite endless.But let me get this straight—I’m empty,Yet I have <strong>the</strong> entire cosmos <strong>in</strong>side me.I’m sure my friends will notice this,And how much bigger I’ve become.More solid, more joyous.More compassionate and lov<strong>in</strong>g.More able <strong>to</strong> live how I truly want—Joyfully work<strong>in</strong>g for <strong>the</strong> care, respectAnd dignity of all be<strong>in</strong>gs.And my friends will want <strong>to</strong> know my secret.I guess I’ll start with:Breath<strong>in</strong>g <strong>in</strong>, andBreath<strong>in</strong>g out…Maple Forest Monastery,, Vermontpho<strong>to</strong> by Lisa May Loveless—Carol<strong>in</strong>e Nicola<strong>the</strong> M<strong>in</strong>dfulness Bell 15