L&R June Magazine 2017

The man ponders – his mind not registering the full gravity of the scene, long blonde
locks knelt in adoration and submission before him. China delicate features outlining that
look, that piercing tranquillity that radiated from her. She was oblivious to the chatter of
the assembled throng clearly focused on the sublime moment.. right here and now.?
The man ponders – Casting his mind back he recalls other moments over the years and
in that second it seems to him he can freeze time, rendering the memories in
monochrome splendour interspersed with vibrant splashes of colour. “how had he
reached this place” a “product of the devil his father would say”, before prattling on about
perception and angrily declaring that all the things he himself saw as diversity and
vibrancy in the human race should be destroyed as “freakish and perverse”. Urgh!! How
his blood had boiled at his father’s small minded prejudice.
The man ponders - still locked in the briefest moment as he studies the form before him.
Then un asked for and unbidden like the onset of summer rain comes that word.. Why? .
Oh that word bringing with it the resonance of so many things, WHY! It calls to him.
Questions never answered but merely touched upon, hinted on the wind. Why did the
dominance bring such a feeling of immediate arousal. Why did the power course through
his body with each command and…. Well why had each relationship before crashed
around his ears like so many piles of shattered hopes and dreams.
The man ponders - he knew the answer. Or at least felt that he was so close to
understanding that he would be able to touch it if he closed his eyes. So simple in its
design that many will never truly understand. Know one ’s self. He had read that before
so many times but always felt detached from its meaning. In nearly all cases where
things had failed he had wrestled with the conflict between what was right and what was
somehow perceived as an act of selfishness. Not blameless his mind considers the
vision before him and smiles. Sure and strong in the knowledge that all the events of the
past have brought him here.