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the past; and that never works. All I could see were enemies and<br />
wicked people, and not friends or anybody who had helped me,<br />
given me good advice or encouraged me. When your heart is<br />
wounded for a long time, you may reject people with good<br />
intentions who could help you because you always question<br />
their motives. The more we take our focus off ourselves, the<br />
more we appreciate the grace of God displayed in the love that<br />
Christ showed us when He hung on the cross. Our confidence<br />
should, therefore, be found only in God’s grace; as Hebrews 4:16<br />
says, “Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with<br />
confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help<br />
us in our time of need.” Only when we focus on God’s grace can<br />
we conquer the battle between the flesh and the spirit. When<br />
He says, “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened...”<br />
(Matthew 11:28), and “Come, all you who are thirsty...” (Isaiah<br />
55:1), He gives neither condition nor qualification. There are no<br />
exceptions or extra requirements. Who can resist such love?<br />
The more we ponder on it, the more we are drawn to it.<br />
Eventually, when we are immersed in it, there is neither room<br />
for our minds to wander away from His presence nor the time<br />
for our hearts to lust after evil. I prayed for three days, seeking<br />
God’s intervention. However, thanks to my conscience, prayer<br />
was more of a burden than a joy. The constant reminder of my<br />
bad past hindered me from experiencing my Father’s love. I had<br />
been told that God was fair, so why did bad things happen to<br />
me? The Bible says, “Whoever corrects a mocker invites insults<br />
and whoever rebukes a wicked man incurs abuse,” (Proverbs.<br />
9:7). All these questions came to my mind because I had been<br />
told that I was not clean and needed to change some things in<br />
my life. My human nature felt offended because it’s hard to<br />
accept the need to change when you think you are perfect. I<br />
always felt I was innocent, and only a victim of the situation I<br />
was going through. This made me think that I had the right to<br />
be what I was and that my insolence was justified. The Bible,<br />
however, says; “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither<br />
are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. As the heavens are<br />
higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and<br />
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