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- Page 9 and 10: To Claire and Benderand what would
- Page 11 and 12: It’s just that…given all of her
- Page 13 and 14: continue to communicate this way be
- Page 15 and 16: “I’m on my way.” I start the
- Page 17 and 18: enough to jog in the middle of nowh
- Page 19 and 20: “Yessssss.” She bows her head i
- Page 21 and 22: everyone moving about, their laught
- Page 23 and 24: “And you don’t?”I feel his ey
- Page 25 and 26: No, it’s not her. It can’t be.
- Page 27 and 28: “Hi.”I dart my eyes up, my hear
- Page 29 and 30: “Or…” she goes on, sounding a
- Page 31 and 32: But she doesn’t back down or feig
- Page 33 and 34: Before pulling away and saying good
- Page 35 and 36: On the current news front, I got in
- Page 37 and 38: Straightening, I place my hands on
- Page 39 and 40: “I posted my review for Brave New
- Page 41 and 42: chair and snatch up my jean shorts.
- Page 43 and 44: a man.”I lean back in my seat, ca
- Page 45 and 46: A few months ago, a jogger named An
- Page 47 and 48: through the elephant and hot air ba
- Page 49: have to fake it much around him.The
- Page 53 and 54: around the park quickly. Come on!
- Page 55 and 56: “Well, if there is,” I speak lo
- Page 57 and 58: “Go,” I tell Ten, nudging his b
- Page 59 and 60: “Let’s go, ladies!” Coach pou
- Page 61 and 62: “Boo.” Lyla pouts. “That’s
- Page 63 and 64: I toss the smooth, tan fabric at he
- Page 65 and 66: mine.Annoyance pricks at me. Awesom
- Page 67 and 68: that right, Manny?” I call out, k
- Page 69 and 70: Trey tosses another paper, harder t
- Page 71 and 72: “It’s him,” Ten whispers in m
- Page 73 and 74: I drop my pencil to the table and r
- Page 75 and 76: I spin around and walk for Masen, a
- Page 77 and 78: I don’t have to turn around to kn
- Page 79 and 80: I was able to get Pre-Calc done at
- Page 81 and 82: couple of hours afterward. I have a
- Page 83 and 84: I lunge for him.I grab hold of the
- Page 85 and 86: I stare at the word written on the
- Page 87 and 88: probably doesn’t have any money,
- Page 89 and 90: “Can I at least read something wr
- Page 91 and 92: I catch sight of Masen out of the c
- Page 93 and 94: there’s no talking. You’re work
- Page 95 and 96: I look up, shaking my head. “No.
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Dear Ryen,I hold the pen over the p
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fantasize I kept them? Maybe with a
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But then I see the passenger side d
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“Does she want it back?”I smile
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“Dude, we should get out of here,
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I turn around and walk down the hal
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“And here I thought you ate child
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I widen my eyes, and every muscle i
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hear the pigeons flapping through t
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drawer. The rest of Misha’s lette
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letters have been slowing down over
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I groan inwardly. Yeah, but “Punk
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I turn and see Lyla, looking a litt
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Even Manny is missing, probably hav
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J.D., Lyla, and I stand and watch a
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Masen approaches, and my heartbeat
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I knock his arm away, my stomach ti
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school, so I’m not here for that.
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I should just leave. Walk out the f
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stay out of my way, or I’ll make
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She twists around and takes out the
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Annie’s fabric softener. She was
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An ache lodges in my throat, and I
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I make it back to the school just a
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“Masen, stop!” I hear someone y
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I bite my tongue, too fucking angry
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Don’t change, Ryen wrote in a let
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Trey is nearly forgotten. For the m
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flicks the ring.I groan again, unab
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I lick my lips, feeling the warm me
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I trail my hand across my cheek and
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She nods, her blue eyes smiling at
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I pass the houses and read the numb
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I bring up my hand and rap on the d
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“Can you believe Masen Laurent?
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Masen pushes off the lockers, still
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him.I want to be closer.He presses
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Making sure the girl who got out a
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through, because I wasn’t sure wh
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He hasn’t called me, though.If he
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I run across the school parking lot
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-PunkI smile to myself. Looks like
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Why would I say anything? This is h
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it open, hearing the alarm go off.
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She raises her eyes, looking a litt
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falls into me, and we both tumble t
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She moans, arching her back, and my
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right thing to drive me insane and
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watching her warily. She dresses an
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I didn’t leave any graffiti last
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on to the roll bar and yelling to s
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“I can handle my boyfriend,” sh
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“Well, I guess there’s somethin
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Good in bed? The thought of him enj
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I sift through change, a few receip
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“You can’t, can you?” His voi
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well as a couple next to us.Masen b
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“You are kissing me.”He gnaws m
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And all of a sudden, I’m not worr
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He pushes up one of my knees, openi
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“Just for a minute, okay?” I pl
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I don’t even want to look outside
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I shoot him a nasty look. But then
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I stop.He touches my face, coming i
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trash can.I curl my fingers around
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I reach down, pretending to get som
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shitty.”I stop and turn my eyes o
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Oh, please. I slide in between him
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I’m going to hell. I’m pretty s
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Reaching down, I left the sheet up,
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I groan, my cock straining against
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move and back up into my cock, eage
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trying to come down.I better get ou
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raided Lieber’s Bakery during sch
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I don’t fear Lyla’s judgement a
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I try to act like a badass, but hon
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He takes my phone out of my hand an
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Of course not. Their dog is big but
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I touch his arm. “Masen?” I say
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“What do you think?” he teases.
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all of them? And Sylvie’s the swe
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I don’t know if Ten will stick wi
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it for the morning when I can watch
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It rhymes. Like a song.Alone, Empty
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I’m about to fucking choke, I can
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Everything is dark, not a single li
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I look up at him, wishing he was aw
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I guess I’ll find out.“I’ve b
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These were all letters that were se
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And I immediately feel her.Standing
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about our parents—the decaying he
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“I lied about the people in my li
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“Where were you this morning?”
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I finish getting my things and clos
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“You’re gonna be,” I threaten
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all do that, because we’re sick o
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town for the night, but they didn
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I laugh. I’ve known him long enou
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Malcolm beats through the fill, the
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I pick up my phone and check to see
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called already, just to break it up
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But I turn back around, advancing o
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“I forget,” I answer, still sta
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I guess they would know. A few year
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His friend, Kai, quietly laughs at
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“Yeah?” I turn my eyes back on
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She keeps stride, her beautiful ass
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The next day, he’s not in our fir
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Over here, separated, alone, and ex
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The O.J. sticks to my legs and seep
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Just being near him is soothing at
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He leads me into a spacious bathroo
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Remembering back, I was pretty hard
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with. I could go back. I could be t
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I close my eyes again, hearing what
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“Talk to me,” he whispers. “I
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“Yeah. We were always just friend
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For the rest of the night.
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I’m not sure if he’s going to b
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predators not allowed to be within
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I dart my eyes to the sides, lookin
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picked for sports and often got in
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But he just looks over at me, looki
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to clean off my arm where thick che
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Everyone gets busy eating. J.D. ste
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overhead threaten more of the same.
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and energy to be everything she was
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“Well, you are the grandson of a
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My sister, I think, was just aggrav
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feel like Misha’s just doing me a
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leading us into the ballroom. The f
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I notice Trey lumbering toward her
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him to keep going.When did he write
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You’re not alone. It gets better.
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“Hey, did you see this?” a girl
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I turn to Misha, sighing. “You sh
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“Sit down.”I prefer to stand, b
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She raises her eyes, locking on min
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the tops of my knees. “And I want
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could’ve, she would’ve. She did
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“It’s just bullshit dives and f
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“What if she doesn’t even remem
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the night off. Go get a date.”Som
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father in Thunder Bay, but the nigh
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What a baby. He knew when he marrie
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Thank you for reading and reviewing
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That’s right. I was in the bathro
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Love,Ryen
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yourself, even if it means those ar
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Fifty-seven letters I didn’t send
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You told us to prepare now and play
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HE WON’T BE HERE.There’d be no
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applied a little lip gloss. I scurr
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What I always wanted to do.To look
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shirt, and silver tie. So clean. So
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Us? No.Trevor didn’t make my hear
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brows that slanted inward, making h
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She had texted earlier, saying she
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nature and self-preservation, and d
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here?But those masks. They were the
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To Ing Cruz at As the Pages Turn Bo
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Penelope Douglas is a New York Time