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10 proza literaturuli gazeTi<br />

`Sen ra gesmis adamianis<br />

Sen zRva xar~<br />

v. nezvali<br />

`es dReebi<br />

da Rameebi~<br />

al. bloki<br />

es iyo zRva, zRvis lurji horizonti.<br />

Cven gaRviZebisTanave vaRebdiT naqiravebi<br />

patara oTaxis kars da am<br />

odnav SemaRlebuli Riobidan moCanda<br />

kolbaSi Casxmuli lurji siTxe,<br />

Tumca es virtualur realobas naklebad<br />

hgavda, radgan aq mowmendili cis<br />

siRrmec gvxvdeboda TvalSi, ca ki cimcimebda<br />

da TandaTan uZravi suraTis<br />

STabeWdilebas moZravi sinamdvilis<br />

STabeWdileba enacvleboda.<br />

es iyo zRva Tavis pirvelqmnili mSvenierebiT,<br />

simkacriT da sidiadiT,<br />

moqceuli Cveni patara karis CarCoSi.<br />

es patara zRvispira oTaxi ki sasjelic<br />

iyo da saCuqaric, romelic drois<br />

mcire monakveTSi gvarguna bedma.<br />

agvistos bolo iyo da haerSi ukve dacuravda<br />

damdnari oqro.<br />

bavSvebi, mariami da anuki, xalisiT<br />

iRviZebdnen da, raRa Tqma unda, zRva<br />

ekeraT pirze, radgan es iyo zRva, es<br />

iyo axali realoba, romelSic Cven<br />

movxvdiT da romelic ras gvpirdeboda,<br />

jer aravin icoda. nana, rogorc<br />

yovelTvis, buzRuniT iRviZebda da xan<br />

ras itkiebda da xan _ ras. aris raRac<br />

marTali adamianis axal garemoSi<br />

gadanacvlebisTanave warmoTqmul<br />

sayvedurebSi, is TiTqos mTel Tavis<br />

ganvlil cxovrebas uCivis da saamiso<br />

sababic gaaCnia. magram es ar aris wuxili,<br />

es aris cxovrebasTan Seguebis<br />

kidev erTi cda, gaucnobiereblad<br />

gadadgmuli kidev erTi gulwrfeli<br />

nabiji, romelic faruli xalisianobis<br />

samzadisia.<br />

_ am sawolma gverdebi gamomiTqvifa.<br />

beWebi Cemi aRar aris, – ambobs<br />

nana da wvalebiT wamoiwevs sawolidan.<br />

zambarebiani sawoli zrialebs da am<br />

zrials raRac usiamovno SegrZneba<br />

axlavs. arada, es sawolebi bavSvobis<br />

agaraks maxsenebs da, rogorc yovel-<br />

Tvis, naRveli mereva.<br />

CamovediT Tu ara, Rrubliani amindi<br />

dagvxvda. qari aSrialebda ezoSi<br />

mdgar uzarmazarfoTlebian subtropikul<br />

xe-mcenareebs, romelTac<br />

nela efineboda wvrili wvima. gaRvi-<br />

ZebisTanave farTquni Camesmoda da<br />

mogvianebiT vxvdebodi, rom am ucnaur<br />

Cqams frTebiviT afrialebul mwvane<br />

foTlebze dacemuli wvima gamoscemda.<br />

mesame dRes gamoidara.<br />

me, rogorc yovelTvis, axlac adre<br />

gameRviZa da zRvaze gamavali patara<br />

oTaxis kari gamovaRe. da gamoCnda<br />

kidev erTxel es saocreba _ aqvariumi-zRva.<br />

pirveli SegrZneba marTlac<br />

ararealobis mokarnaxea, albaT imitom,<br />

rom warmoudgenelia saxlis kari<br />

gamoaRo da Tvalwin qviSrobis nawiburi,<br />

zRvis lurji zoli da cis siRrme<br />

SemogefeTos. mere ki TandaTan<br />

eguebi yovelive amas.<br />

oTaxidan kibe eSveba ezos viwro<br />

WiSkrisaken. WiSkris gareT ki qvafenilia,<br />

sadac SortebSi gamowyobili<br />

damsveneblebi daabijeben. maT Soris<br />

arian wyvilebi, Ripiani kacebi da sqeli<br />

qalebi, aqve arian wyvilebi bavSvebTan<br />

erTad. bavSvebi morCilad misdeven<br />

mSoblebs da xelSi gasaberi<br />

leibebi da baliSebi uWiravT. yvelas<br />

kmayofili saxe aqvs. dilis zRvas eSurebian<br />

da mere brundebian zRvidan.<br />

da asea yoveldRe, sanam ar dadgeba<br />

dro maTi aqedan gamgzavrebisa. qreba<br />

ukve nacnobi da Cndeba ucnobi saxeebi.<br />

Tumca agvistos bolos ukve imdeni<br />

xalxi iyris Tavs, rom yvelaferi erTmaneTSi<br />

ireva.<br />

xuTlariani Wilobi viyideT, aqve,<br />

qobuleTis bazrobaze da pliaJze vwevarT.<br />

zRva dRes wynaria, odnav scems<br />

napirs talRa. mariami cxra wlis aris,<br />

anuki _ eqvsis. mariami Tamamad Sedis<br />

zRvaSi, anuki frTxilad mihyveba<br />

fexdafex. da es aris zRva, kamertoni<br />

Cveni yofierebis. `wleuls zRvaze<br />

viyavi~, `agvistoSi qobuleTSi visvenebdi"<br />

_ ukve TbilisSi Casulebi<br />

zantad auwyeben nacnobebs. nacnobebi<br />

andro buaCiZe<br />

damqancveli zRva<br />

ki irevian da ilewebian da ganur-<br />

Cevelni xdebian. maT ar axsovT zRva,<br />

radgan zRvaze didi xnis win iyvnen, an<br />

ar undaT zRva, radgan maTi cxovreba<br />

sxva mimarTulebiT warimarTa.<br />

me meSinia zRvis, me qvecnobierad<br />

mizidavs da ganmizidavs kidec zRva.<br />

TiTqos cxovrebas, am CemTvis mudam<br />

gaugebar stiqias raRac axali da aseve<br />

gaugebari stiqia erwymis. saidan iRebs<br />

dasabams es grZnoba, Zneli saTqmelia.<br />

maxsendeba Soreuli bavSvobis fragmentebi,<br />

swored qobuleTSi gadaRebuli<br />

fotosuraTi. aq me Cveulebriv,<br />

myudro da Semokavebul qobuleTur<br />

ezoSi vdgavar CemianebTan erTad,<br />

yvelgan Suq-Crdilebia dafenili, me<br />

TviTon mzis nafleTSi var gamoxveuli<br />

da gaRimebuli viyurebi. me, ra Tqma<br />

unda, es wuTi ar maxsovs, da rom ara<br />

foto, wamierebis es fragmentic<br />

gaqreboda Cemi cxovrebidan, rogorc<br />

araerTi ram gamqrala.<br />

warsuli aRar arsebobs. me TiTqos<br />

sxva qalaqSi Camovedi, Camovedi mar-<br />

Tlac sxva adamianebTan erTad da sainteresoa<br />

is, rom sxva var TviTon mec.<br />

am qalaqSi Zveleburi mxolod palmebia.<br />

axalia uklebliv yvelaferi. me es<br />

qalaqi mTel Cems warsulTan erTad<br />

damaviwyda, rogorc ambavi, romelic<br />

erTxans miraJiviT anTia maxsovroba-<br />

Si, mere ki wvrilman detalebTan er-<br />

Tad qreba. es amnezia TiTqos farul<br />

sixarulsac maniWebs. TiTqos raRac<br />

unda daiwyos Tavidan, magram amjerad<br />

CemTvis araferi ar iwyeba da arc daiwyeba.<br />

ukve yvelaferi iyo.<br />

zRva. talRebs dilidanve seraven<br />

wylis motocikletebi, oTxive mxares<br />

eSurebian katerebi, romeliRac katerze<br />

gamobmuli paraSutiT adamiani<br />

laJvardebs gadakveTs. erTi aseTi<br />

gafrena ormocdaaTi lari Rirs.<br />

raRacnairi lurji dRe aris, TiTqos<br />

amCatebulia da gaxalisebuli. me, nana<br />

da bavSvebi kidev erTxel vaxelT<br />

Tvals axal realobaSi, me kidev erTxel<br />

vxsni Cveni cisferi oTaxis kars,<br />

saidanac ferxTiT lurji zRva<br />

moCans. saocari is aris, rom wevxar<br />

Seni oTaxis sawolze da xedav zRvas.<br />

es TiTqmis daujerebelia.<br />

me kibiT Cavdivar subtropikuli<br />

xeebiT da magidebiT gawyobil ezoSi.<br />

qalebs vedroebiT axladdaWerili<br />

kefali moaqvT gasayidad. nana yidulobs<br />

kefals da samzareuloSi did<br />

tafaze wvavs. ezoSi dasasveneblad<br />

Camosuli somxis bavSvebi irevian _<br />

qristina, eduki da jano. hamakSi janos<br />

mama zis, fexebi SlopancebSi aqvs wayofili<br />

da Svils eZaxis: `janoo... janoo,<br />

ar-estex~. somxebi dilidan SuadRemde<br />

zRvaze arian, mere sadRac<br />

ikargebian, saRamoTi isev zRvaze gamodian,<br />

daRamebulze ezoSi mwvadebs<br />

wvaven da zed arays ayoleben _ `janoo,<br />

janoo, janoo~, _ Camesmis es xma<br />

da bavSvebTan erTad zRvisken mivdivar.<br />

mariami wyalSi dgas da talRis movardnas<br />

elodeba. talRa igvianebs,<br />

magram nel-nela wamoiburceba da modis,<br />

TiTqos napirs eparebao, mere Tavs<br />

amoyofs da skdeba, exeTqeba adamianebs,<br />

exeTqeba mariams da abarbacebs,<br />

mariams wurwuriT dasdis wyali da<br />

xarxarebs, Tavis stiqiaSia da axali<br />

talRis movardnas elodeba, anuki<br />

ufro axlos dgas napirTan da talRa<br />

rom wamova, gulisfancqaliT gamorbis<br />

napirisaken. icinis.<br />

me arafers ar moveli zRvisgan da<br />

cota ar iyos mikvirs, rom isini amden<br />

siaxles iReben. me ar mtovebs imis<br />

gancda, rom yovelive es ukve iyo da<br />

iyo mravalgzis. arada, isic vici, rom<br />

amaze fiqri sruliadac ar aris aucilebeli.<br />

unda miiRo is, rac aris da<br />

unda miiRo xelaxla, vinaidan es sicocxlea<br />

da mxolod awmyoSi arsebobs.<br />

me ki ar mtovebs imis gancda, rom Cems<br />

cxovrebaSi yovelive es ukve iyo da<br />

amitomac d<strong>aka</strong>rga cxoveli interesi.<br />

erTaderTi siaxle is aris, rom bavSvebTan<br />

erTad aq pirvelad var da maT<br />

ar ician, ra aris zRva.<br />

TandaTan saRamovdeba. bavSvebi nanasTan<br />

erTad kenWebs agroveben. es nanas<br />

gatacebaa: serdoliki, qarva,<br />

safironi. nana eZebs met-naklebad<br />

Zvirfas qvebs, romlebic sabolood<br />

Zvirfasi qvebi ar aRmoCndeba. Zvirfasi<br />

qvebi zRvaSi ar ipoveba, zRvaSi mxolod<br />

niJarebia.<br />

saRamoobiT mtovebs gaxevebis gancda.<br />

erTma fsiqologma aRmoaCina, rom<br />

didi qalaqis mkvidrT Sinagani gaxeveba<br />

emarTebaT. es aris egreTwodebuli<br />

frustracia, ganurCevloba yovelives<br />

mimarT, roca raimes gaxsenebas<br />

vapireb, maxsendeba Cemi Tavi Tbilis-<br />

Si, Cemsave samsaxurSi. me vdgavar fanjarasTan<br />

da gadavyureb muzeumis<br />

ezos. maRali fanjris minis tixars<br />

miRma moCans talaveri, talaverTan<br />

moxuci damlagebeli qali dawrialebs.<br />

moaqvs xaliCa da ezoSi qvafenilze<br />

afens. mere ixelTebs Slangs da<br />

recxavs xaliCas. wyali n<strong>aka</strong>dulebad<br />

miuyveba damrec qvafenils. xali-<br />

CasTan modis mZRoli. mZRoli axalgazrda<br />

biWia. mZRoli da damlagebeli<br />

qali saubroben, mere icinian. maTi<br />

sicili ar aRwevs Cemamde, mxolod<br />

saidanRac, sxva ezodan meqanikuri xerxis<br />

monotonuri xma ismis. sad aRar<br />

vmuSaobdi da naSuadRevs samsaxuris<br />

oTaxSi yovelTvis am xerxis Zilismomgvreli<br />

xma Camesmoda...<br />

gaxeveba mtovebs da bavSvebTan er-<br />

Tad gavyureb zRvaze mzis Casvlas.<br />

zRva hgavs cariel udabnos da miuxedavad<br />

amisa, mtovebs gaxeveba da erTi<br />

poetis leqsi maxsendeba, Tumca ki ar<br />

maxsendeba, erTxel, didi xnis winaT<br />

amekviata da imis mere ratomRac aRar<br />

mSordeba:<br />

mze dadga zRvaze, rogorc iremi,<br />

alanda rqebi talRebis brolSi,<br />

rogorc qalebi atyorcnilebi,<br />

alvebi dganan samegreloSi.<br />

am leqsis gaxsenebisas yovelTvis<br />

vcdilob, warmovidgino haerSi atyorcnili<br />

qalebi, warmosaxvas vZabav da<br />

vxedav momrgvalebul plastiur<br />

formebs, romlebic Soreulad molivlive<br />

alvebis asociacias iwveven.<br />

nanas aqvs iSviaTi unari _ ucnaur,<br />

iqneb odiozur adamianebs gamoelaparakos.<br />

saRamoobiT napirze yovel-<br />

Tvis Camodis saxemoquruxebuli qali,<br />

romelsac xelSi momcro videoaparati<br />

uWiravs da iRebs mzis Casvlas. es<br />

qali gaqvavebuli dgas, mxolod odnav<br />

amoZravebs marjvena xelSi CabRujul<br />

aparats, raTa mTeli dasalieri moicvas.<br />

`Cemi aparati wiTel fers ar<br />

2 -15 aprili 2010<br />

iRebs~, _ ambobs xmadabla qali. qali<br />

saerTod xmadabla laparakobs, nanac<br />

xmadabla elaparakeba, ise, rom me ar<br />

mesmis. mogvianebiT ki miyveba: es qali<br />

Turme mTeli cxovreba sajaro biblioTekaSi<br />

muSaobda, qmari tragikulad<br />

daeRupa, qaliSvilma ki miatova<br />

da ucxoeTSi wavida. axla marto cxovrobs<br />

da mowafeebs amzadebs, mgoni,<br />

germanuli enis gakveTilebs utarebs.<br />

daRamda. Sors mwvane koncxia, imis<br />

iqiT baTumi. baTumis portSi erTi<br />

didi gemi dgas da misi sinaTle zRvaSi<br />

irekleba. yovelive es wertiliviT<br />

aRwevs Cemamde. `mami, mSia~, – meubneba<br />

mariami. elnaTurebian gzispirs gavivliT<br />

da kafe-barSi SevdivarT. oficiant<br />

qals velodebiT, magidaze limonaTis<br />

boTli da Wiqa dgas. mariami<br />

boTls xsnis, SemTxveviT wakravs xels<br />

Wiqas, romelic Zirs ecema da tydeba.<br />

vici, rom ar unda gavuwyre, magram<br />

mainc vuwyrebi. ar unda gavuwyre, radgan<br />

aseTi ram aravis surs, yovelTvis<br />

SemTxveviT xdeba. ase memarTeboda mec,<br />

roca bavSvi viyavi da mec miwyrebodnen,<br />

icodnen, rom ar unda gamwyromodnen,<br />

magram mainc miwyrebodnen, albaT<br />

imitom, rom es roli viRacas mudmivad<br />

unda Seesrulebina. me minda<br />

vuTxra mariams, rom is araferSi ar<br />

aris damnaSave, vatyob, rogori mowyeniloba<br />

ipyrobs mas da vapireb kidec<br />

amis Tqmas, magram mainc gawyromas ganvagrZob<br />

da veubnebi, rom jer CemTvis<br />

unda ekiTxa yvelaferi da mere emoqmeda<br />

da maxsendeba, isini, vinc me miwyrebodnen,<br />

aRar arian, aRar arian ukve<br />

daRamebuli, magram jer kidev im wiTeli<br />

dasalieris miRmac ki, romelic<br />

kafe-baris gareT, zRvis Tavze anTia.<br />

im zRvis Tavze, romliskenac me<br />

viyurebi; miwyreboda mamaCemi, romelic<br />

axla aq ar aris, arc sxvagan aris<br />

sadme da me isev gavcqeri wiTel dasaliers<br />

da zRvaze moTamaSe anareklebs<br />

da vfiqrob, rom maT miRmac ukve gardasulTagan<br />

aravin aRar unda iyos.<br />

baridan gamosulebi nel-nela mivuyvebiT<br />

elnaTurebiT ganaTebul sanapiros.<br />

mariami dums, mec vdumvar, ar<br />

aewyo Cveni urTierToba. zRvispira<br />

bulvarze bevri xalxi moZraobs. ma-<br />

Ralskamebian bars CavuvliT, erTxans<br />

vfiqrob, Sevide Tu ara am barSi, mere<br />

gadawyvetilebas viReb, mariams vTxov,<br />

rom aqve damelodos da barSi Sevdivar.<br />

mariamma icis, ratom Sevdivar<br />

barSi, magram radgan nawyenia, ar aprotestebs,<br />

dgas quCaSi, xalxis Suagul-<br />

Si da miyurebs, rogor vjdebi maRal<br />

skamze da barmens sasmels vukveTav. me<br />

skamze wamomjdari vsvam viskis da baris<br />

Ria karidan vuyureb mariams, Cems<br />

cxra wlis gogonas. da me vfiqrob uecrad<br />

imaze, rom is Cemia. mariami<br />

grZnobs yovelive amas, xalxis n<strong>aka</strong>d-<br />

Si dgas da ukve sul odnav miRimis. Cven<br />

erTmaneTs TvalebSi vuyurebT, didxans<br />

vuyurebT, moZravi xalxis n<strong>aka</strong>di<br />

zogjer uxeSad ejaxeba mariams,<br />

TiTqos unda, rom waiyolos, mariami<br />

waiborZikebs da mere isev swordeba,<br />

inarCunebs wonasworobas da Cemken<br />

iyureba.<br />

SuaRamisas meRviZeba da pirvelive<br />

wuTebidan vgrZnob, rom mewyeba Cemi<br />

mtanjveli uZiloba. Cemebs sZinavT. me<br />

Soreulma foriaqis xmam gamaRviZa da<br />

es xma TandaTan ufro miaxlovdeba.<br />

ara, es xma ki ar aris, fusfusia, mravali<br />

adamianis mSfoTvare fusfusi,<br />

SeZrwunebuli fusfusi. am foriaqis<br />

fonze erTi isteriuli xma ikveTeba:<br />

`ra uqeniT, biWo, kacs, Tqveni deda...<br />

ra uqeniT, biWoo~. sawolidan vdgebi<br />

da fanjridan viyurebi. gineba ezos<br />

gverdiT asvetili sastumros ezodan<br />

aRwevs, gadaRma mxares raRac xdeba.<br />

`ra uqeniT, biWo, ra uqeniT, me Tqveni<br />

deda...~ etyoba odnav ganaTebul sibneleSi<br />

bevri xalxi moZraobs, ismis<br />

qSenis, sasowarkveTili Rnavilis susti<br />

xmebi, yvelaferi erTmaneTSi ireva<br />

da ilufxeba. mere TandaTan ufro<br />

Soridan aRwevs `ra uqeniT, Tqveni<br />

deda...~ mTvralebi TandaTan Sordebian<br />

Cxubis adgils da maTi RameSi gabneuli<br />

isteriuli xmebi ufro da<br />

ufro ibneva da ifanteba.<br />

zRva Relavs, zRva ganurCevelia<br />

yvelas mimarT. oTaxSi vwevar da mTe-

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