Eating Disorders - fieldi
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Recovery 173<br />
They seem to be living proof of that very contradiction, and<br />
nothing anyone can say will make it easier. Now they work at defining<br />
themselves in a new way, feeling terrified of who they might<br />
become. I see their strong wills and gentle souls trying to merge—<br />
strengths that have become an illness because the conflict is too<br />
much to bear.<br />
I see beautiful women, young and old, loathing their bodies<br />
because they do not quite meet society’s standards for thin and firm.<br />
I wonder how I will protect my daughters from all this. How do I<br />
help them embrace who they are and know they have something<br />
wonderful to contribute because they are both strong and sensitive—in<br />
essence, how do I protect them from all that I struggled<br />
with as a young woman and continue to confront as a mature woman<br />
in today’s society?<br />
Having daughters has made me recall some of my own struggle at<br />
different stages in my life. In turn, it has helped me to be more sensitive<br />
to my patients.<br />
I have come to understand more fully the pain of a parent who has<br />
to learn, as I do, that we cannot protect our children from everything.<br />
Knowing when to protect or support or guide or let go is a<br />
complex part of parenting, as our own desires to have had these<br />
needs met in our own childhood may surface.<br />
A bit should be added here about the family’s struggle. Initially,<br />
eating disorders may get translated in families as just a problem<br />
involving weight loss and food. Parents feel helpless, frustrated,<br />
responsible, and often angry at the control being exercised by the<br />
child because of her illness and symptoms. They need to be helped<br />
and often educated about anorexia and bulimia.<br />
Patients often report feeling guilty about how their eating disorder<br />
is affecting their family. At the same time they are crying out for<br />
help—for themselves and for their family. In therapy they may talk<br />
about the pressure they feel to be the model child or their desire to<br />
make everyone happy. They want to be separate yet fear the thought<br />
of it. They have a difficult time owning their right to life and enjoyment,<br />
despite their parents’ plight.<br />
I thought that getting the perspective of a mother who experienced<br />
recovery through her daughter might be helpful. I asked my<br />
own mother for her insight. She expressed the helplessness I spoke