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Recovery Through Nutritional Counseling 45<br />
As Sue gained weight, every single pound scared her. She went<br />
through phases where she would eat normally and not exercise at<br />
all, or restrict her eating and exercise a lot, so we had weight fluctuations<br />
throughout the recovering period. This happened three<br />
times during the refeeding phase. The first occurrence was when<br />
Sue initially stopped purging and starving and gradually started to<br />
eat, immediately gaining five pounds, mostly in water weight. (Normally<br />
patients gain from 2 to 7 pounds within the first week or<br />
two.) In a couple of weeks this bloatedness was gone. The second<br />
time Sue experienced weight fluctuations was when she stopped<br />
denying the hunger. This immense body signal was overwhelming<br />
for Sue since she felt that responding to it would result in overeating<br />
to the point of becoming overweight. Instead she began to<br />
restrict again and lost a few pounds. With remotivation she was<br />
again able to gain weight. Sue’s third and last struggle with the<br />
scale was when she approached 100 pounds. Being below 100<br />
pounds meant being special: She felt strong. She could count her<br />
ribs, a wonderful sign of success. When the scale tipped slightly<br />
above 100 pounds, she felt she was no longer special, that she<br />
weighed just what everyone else weighs. So again she began to<br />
restrict her intake and exercise a lot.<br />
What came to be most important for Sue was her ability (in our<br />
sessions) to see how her thinking was distorted and how she was<br />
able to turn it around to being realistic. This helped her be happier<br />
with herself. For example, if her mom told her that she had to have<br />
dinner, she would get scared for a moment and react: “No, she cannot<br />
make me eat! I am bigger than she is. She cannot make me do<br />
this, she is shorter than I am. She cannot force-feed me!” Then she<br />
would feel strong. She would also tell herself, on seeing someone<br />
eating cake, for example, that that person was weak, that she herself<br />
was strong by not eating that cake. She would make similar<br />
comments about any other foods that she used to eat and that now<br />
were forbidden to her. At her very first visit Dr. Mickley told her,<br />
“When you are happy it doesn’t matter how much you weigh.” Sue<br />
couldn’t believe her ears; she thought Dr. Mickley must be crazy! It<br />
was the stupidest remark she had ever heard; but if one were to ask<br />
her how she feels today, she would tell you she’s never been happier<br />
and honestly doesn’t know how much she weighs.