On the Spiritual ladder (pdf) - Kabbalah-arizal.nl

urn the ships so you can’t go back to your sins, while we can experience shortage,
sometimes even stronger, because the closer you come to the Creator, the more it seems
that you have a shortage, because the more radiant you see the face the Creator.
Thus the more radiant you see the face of the Creator… that we are like a reflection of the
light, then you feel that you have a shortage. You have to learn that it’s all structural and
that it’s a sign that you’re getting closer. At the moment when he feels shortage, means that
he is farther than in the state when he looked at others as small children. Why was it like
this? He then looked at them as small children, who only thought about the needs of our
world, while he lived elevated, but now suddenly he feels in a state of falling, that he has a
shortage and then he has no power anymore to even remember at the moments when he
was in a state op revival.
And he thinks; life isn’t worth anything, etc. While even now he’s in a good state, only in the
feeling of shortage, that means that he perhaps approached a newer or higher step, but he
doesn’t experience it yet, then it is seen and experienced as darkness. But now we know that
both darkness and light are structural parts of one whole. So you don’t have to feel pathetic
when you’re in a state of darkness when you know that both, darkness and light are
structural. Not that you bring yourself in darkness, then it’s your fault that you’re in a state
of misery. When you do normal, work on yourself, have a good life and feel shortage, then
it’s structural. Also therefore you have to be absolutely thankful. Then you have to strive to
get closer. Learn Kabbalah…
So he was talking about the state when he looked at others and thought that they were as
small children) that they couldn’t make a calculation (make a calculation means to look at
the final goal of life), but only look where their eyes look at (that was their occupation) for
that they strived (only what their eyes see, his friends, but later we’ll see that he’s talking
about one person, but he tells us as if… sometimes they look at life as if the main goal is
money. How often don’t we think about money).
And sometimes they think that the main goal of life is to have honour of other people.
(sometimes you think of money or you think of achieving a social status. What doesn’t a man
do to get honour and status?
And now he finds himself in those states, in the state when he laughed at them and now he
feels that he has no more taste in life (he sees his state as something negative while it’s
structural).
So what we now learned was an application of what there is written in the Torah; there was
evening and there was morning, one day. He translated it for us into the spiritual work. He’s
going to do the same for the whole Torah.
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