The Polish Experience By Nicholas Westerby This ... - GetSab.Com

safe because we were drunk or too ‘in the moment’.
Could I believe that I had planned this?
That I had meant for her to get pregnant?
I didn’t believe it after her tearful performance but it was just as likely that she
planned such mischief. Even, it was possible, that we both planned it secretly
and we were both celebrating our evil plan while cursing dumb luck.
A baby would be a joyous thing anyway. I had nephews that I loved. I had
grown up babysitting for my cousins and now I was going to be bonded to
another human being in the strongest possible way. Me and Elly were going to
be a team, we were no longer two separate hearts, we were three and we would
beat as one.
I can’t remember how long she was gone or how long I stared into the abyss. I
had stopped seeing the sky anyway. I was remembering my past and attempting
to forecast our future. The future is so hopeful. However much shit you have
had to live through there is always that bright new day which until the sun sets
again holds all the possibilities imaginable and then some. I now had more
structure to my future than I think I had ever had.
When I snapped out of my trance I was smiling and when I realised Elly was
cuddling my arm I smiled harder and wider. I rubbed her tummy, then the back