Kathamrita Volume II - Swami Vivekananda

“I was so very fond of him in my childhood.We were together day and night. We used tosleep together. I was sixteen or seventeen yearsold then. People would say, ‘If one of themwere a woman, they would marry each other.’We used to play together at his house. Iremember all those days. His relatives used toarrive by palanquin. The palanquin men wouldrepeat, ‘Hinjoda! Hinjoda [14] !”“I sent word to him through many people tocome see me. He is now running a shop inChanak. He came here the other day and stayedfor two days.“Ram told me, ‘I had no child of my own. Ibrought up my brother’s son, but he died.’ Heheaved a big sigh when he said this. Tearsflowed down his cheeks. He has suffered agreat loss at the death of his nephew.“And then he said that because she had no childof her own, his wife gave all her love andaffection to the nephew. She was nowoverwhelmed by grief. I have been telling her,‘You are crazy! What can you gain bygrieving? Would you like to go to Kashi?’“When he called his wife crazy, I found himabsolutely ‘diluted’. I could not touch him. Icould see that there was nothing [no substance]in him.”While Thakur is saying all this in connection