Kathamrita Volume II - Swami Vivekananda

“ ‘Go [7] ’ also began to act like that. He beganto find fault with others. If he was toaccompany me in the carriage, he would delayour departure. He would become upset whenother young men would come to see me. If Iwent to Calcutta to visit them, he would say,‘Are they going to renounce the world that yougo to see them?’ Before giving refreshments toeveryone, I would say to him out of fear, ‘Eat,and give some to them.’ It seemed to me thathe would not stay.“Then I said to the Divine Mother, ‘Mother,don’t take him away altogether like you didHriday.’ Later I heard that he was going toVrindavan.“If ‘Go’ had stayed on at that time, none ofthese young men would have come to me.When he went to Vrindavan, the boys startedvisiting me.”‘Go’ (humbly) — Sir, that was not in my mind.Ram Dutta — Can you understand your mindas he can?‘Go’ remains silent.Sri Ramakrishna (to ‘Go’) — Why do youbehave this way? I love you more than a fatherloves his child.“Now keep quiet. You no longer have that