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How to find the [right]<br />
therapist...<br />
with Grace<br />
TEDx speaker and author, our columnist Grace Victory draws on personal<br />
experience to share her invaluable insight into the issues that matter to you<br />
It’s no secret that I advocate for<br />
therapy; it’s essential in my<br />
life, and has been for years.<br />
Therapy taught me how to<br />
communicate what I need, how<br />
to practise self-care, how to set<br />
boundaries, and how to reparent<br />
my inner child. The process has<br />
been wild, and I’m still going.<br />
I’ve tried cognitive behavioural<br />
therapy (CBT), talking therapies,<br />
holistic healing, and I’m currently<br />
having psychodynamic and<br />
psychoanalytic trauma therapy.<br />
Every treatment has differed –<br />
some I’ve loathed, some I’ve loved,<br />
and some I go back to. It’s fair to<br />
say that therapy has changed my<br />
life, but my experiences haven’t all<br />
been positive.<br />
I was 20 when I first asked for<br />
help for depression and body<br />
image issues, and through my GP<br />
I was offered a one-to-one session<br />
with a male psychiatrist to receive<br />
a diagnosis, and then six group<br />
therapy sessions.<br />
Looking back, it’s a shame I<br />
wasn’t given a choice about which<br />
setting I would’ve preferred. I<br />
also wasn’t used to talking so<br />
vulnerably with an older man,<br />
and from the outset I believed I<br />
couldn’t ever trust him, but I also<br />
didn’t want to trust him – which is<br />
an important factor.<br />
After speaking about my<br />
childhood, and how I felt about<br />
my body, the psychiatrist said: “It’s<br />
clear what’s going on. You have<br />
abandonment issues with your<br />
father, and that has forced you to<br />
use food as a way to cope. I’d like<br />
you to come to group therapy and<br />
start Weight Watchers, to learn<br />
how to eat and lose some weight to<br />
help your body image issues.”<br />
(Are you angry? Because 29-yearold<br />
Grace just got really f**king<br />
angry all over again).<br />
The very person who should<br />
have helped me start the healing<br />
process, instead fed my eating<br />
disorder mind, and gave me the<br />
go ahead to blame myself and my<br />
body for things that were not my<br />
fault. I never saw him again. I<br />
never attended the group sessions.