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We feel our body has let<br />
us down with infertility.<br />
This feeling is further<br />
heightened during an IVF<br />
cycle when we have so<br />
much hope, mixed with fear<br />
I hid the hospital trips, the<br />
injections, and the side-effects,<br />
from everyone but my husband<br />
and parents; creating anxiety<br />
over turning down work without<br />
explanation, or cancelling plans<br />
because my egg collection was<br />
suddenly moved forward.<br />
But telling terrified me – with the<br />
pressure of ‘any news?’ messages,<br />
and the pain of telling someone it<br />
hasn’t worked when you’ve barely<br />
processed it yourself.<br />
It’s difficult to know exactly how<br />
you’ll cope when you see a stark<br />
white pregnancy test. Telling the<br />
few I had confided in was awful.<br />
And yet, equally, having to go on as<br />
normal with those I hadn’t, was just<br />
as painful.<br />
Is there a right choice? Mandy<br />
Worsley, a freedom fertility specialist<br />
who herself has been through six<br />
IVF cycles, says: “One of the burdens<br />
we carry around is the fact that we<br />
are having fertility issues, as it can be<br />
a very private journey.<br />
“But research shows that not feeling<br />
able to share with our close family<br />
and friends, can add to our stress<br />
levels. I encourage those undergoing<br />
IVF to choose a support network<br />
who will help them at this very<br />
emotional time,” explains Mandy.<br />
The blame game<br />
Much of my anxiety has always<br />
stemmed around control, so when<br />
IVF failed, my question was: what<br />
did I do wrong? It’s hard to accept<br />
that IVF is very much a numbers<br />
game, so my brain would attempt<br />
to answer an unsolvable question.<br />
Was it that glass of wine I drank,<br />
or did I overdo it the day after<br />
transfer?<br />
It’s something Mandy Worsley<br />
knows well. “As women, we feel >>><br />
<strong>October</strong> <strong>2020</strong> • happiful.com • 23