Issue 22 - 1992
Issue 22 - 1992
Issue 22 - 1992
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Coe Review • <strong>Issue</strong> <strong>22</strong><br />
hurrying toward. That’s all language is about. And the television<br />
says hostages in lebanon, preschool drug addiction, dioxides, acid<br />
rain and nuclear waste.<br />
“Fish,” you say. “Fish fish fish. Goldfish. Goldfish daddy.”<br />
You can still feel the wet squirming word in your hand. You can still<br />
see it falling down the long black pipe. And the marcie saying you’re<br />
in trouble now, boy. You’re in trouble now. The round bowl-water<br />
empty and opaque with tiny white feces. And next day mother says<br />
Where’s our family photographs? They were right there on the<br />
mantelpiece. And the marcie puts her fists firmly on her hips to tell<br />
them, but then you say “Mother. Daddy. Marcie. Grandma.<br />
Grandma.” All those words you found in the grandma’s mouth last<br />
night. And nobody hears the marcie say a thing. Now it’s the<br />
marcie’s words that don’t really matter.<br />
“Kodak,” you tell them finally, just to let them know you<br />
understand even big words, too. “Kodacolor. Kodachrome.”<br />
But the grandma is never happy when you visit, looking at<br />
you with her big black mouth open. Aaaah. All the world’s loud<br />
words resounding and spinning down there in the grandma’s mouth.<br />
You try to pet and soothe her. These are the words, you think. These<br />
are words right here, and the grandma kicks and grabs, gurgling<br />
where your hand is, and so you take your hand back. Grandma<br />
grandma. All the darkness inside the grandma grows and grows,<br />
whispers and whispers, moves and pushes. Everything’s better down<br />
there. Down there the grandma can be happy again. Down there the<br />
grandma can be grandma again.<br />
You lead her down the hall steps. Doo, doo, doo, doo. One<br />
two two four two one two two. The grandma holds the banister<br />
because she’s afraid. She makes different noises now, wordless<br />
noises down in her stomach and thighs and feet. Doo doo doo doo<br />
doo. All the shadows hanging from the walls and furniture and<br />
curtains, and opening the squeaky picture window, the grandma<br />
leaning against you, her body thin and frail and very soft like a giant<br />
stuffed giraffe. The grandma all hollow spongy bone. The grandma<br />
all sound and word and dream. Outside, the night is filled with stars<br />
and the big fat leaning moon, humming there, filling the steel pipe<br />
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