Issue 22 - 1992
Issue 22 - 1992
Issue 22 - 1992
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Coe Review • <strong>Issue</strong> <strong>22</strong><br />
of solid ground back so much that you will keep to the thing that is<br />
not right, willing it to be right for another day’s journey a few<br />
thousand more steps, because you want to not think about the dark<br />
hole waiting for you, and if you can delay the collapse of the ground<br />
you will certainly do it. I had felt this way toward my relationship<br />
with Jenny on many occasions, and I felt it now regarding distrusting<br />
my friends. I could not believe that Marisa had taken anything, and<br />
I could not believe that anyone else had taken anything.<br />
Jenny hardly slept for two nights. - “These skinheads, these<br />
Boot women,” she said, “I wonder if they disapprove of me. I<br />
wonder if they hate me ‘cause I’m Asian girl. Maybe they want to<br />
hurt me. I mean, they’re Nazis!” - I had not told her what the<br />
skinheads said about her, but even so she knew that one night a<br />
month or two from now, when we had forgotten the incident, Marisa<br />
would come sneaking up to the door and unlock it with the stolen<br />
keys, and then Dickie and Mark Dagger and Chuckles and Blue and<br />
Yama and Hunter and Dee and Spike and Nazi Joe and Ice and Dan-<br />
L would then come charging up the stairs and Dagger would shatter<br />
the banister with one kick of his Nazi boots and Yama would smash<br />
in the curtained glass door of Margaret’s room and start hitting<br />
Margaret over the head with a chair and the rest of them would come<br />
back into Jenny’s room and find Jenny and me sleeping on her<br />
waterbed and Dickie would slit the waterbed with a sharpened tin<br />
can and the skinheads would yell at us, “All right, where’s the<br />
money? Where’s the money?” - and Marisa would tell me I had one<br />
minute to get out and leave Jenny to her fate, and then Yama would<br />
hit her in the face and say, “Shut up, bitch! We’re gonna carve ‘em<br />
all!”, and Chuckles and Blue would piss into our faces and Ice would<br />
begin to dismantle the living room stereo with tender care.<br />
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After two weeks, Jenny became resigned. We took to<br />
locking her door and my door with the deadbolts, which had not<br />
been used before, and which Jenny had not had keys for. Her face<br />
was still puffy with tears. For Jenny, who loved clean things and neat<br />
things and organized things despite her own carelessness, the loss of<br />
the wallet was an aesthetic disaster as well as a security risk. “I wish<br />
I misplaced it,” she said mournfully, “though it really doesn’t make<br />
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