Issue 22 - 1992
Issue 22 - 1992
Issue 22 - 1992
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The Blue Wallet<br />
William T.Vollmann<br />
Coe Review • <strong>Issue</strong> <strong>22</strong><br />
The thing you dislike or hate will surely come upon you, for<br />
when a man hates, he makes a vivid picture in the<br />
subconscious mind, and it objectifies.- Florence Scovel<br />
Shinn, Your Word is Your Wand (1928) *<br />
1<br />
I loved Jenny most when, sitting beside her at sentimental<br />
movies, I would look away from the big screen where the beautiful<br />
actress was about to leave her lover forever, and see Jenny sitting<br />
upright in her chair, her black button-eyes concentrating so hard on<br />
the film, while she chewed and chewed her gum so earnestly, and I<br />
ran my forefinger below her eyes to verify that her face was wet, that<br />
Jenny was crying for the people on the screen, crying in perfect<br />
placid happiness over this debacle that had never happened; and I<br />
knew that after the movie was over Jenny would forget that she had<br />
cried, but she would feel refreshed by her tears. - How harmless it all<br />
was! Sometimes I myself, reminded by the actress of my own<br />
failures, would be scalded by a single heavy tear; but this would not<br />
be a good feeling, and I would have to stroke Jenny’s wet eyelid<br />
again with my finger to be soothed.<br />
2<br />
“I got in a fight with this fucking fat woman!” cried<br />
Bootwoman Marisa, who was now a bicycle messenger. Her legs<br />
were covered with bruises like rotten apples. “Right when you get to<br />
the end of the block you go up onto the sidewalk. And there was like<br />
a Mack truck coming right at me, and it was totally obvious that I<br />
was not gonna to be able to fucking avoid it unless I put on my<br />
brakes to skid to like avoid this woman. And I told her, I go, MOVE!<br />
I yelled really loud; I go, MOVE! and she goes, No!” - and, imitating<br />
the woman’s voice, Marisa expressed this determined negation in a<br />
birdlike screech - “and she stands right there, and I go, Fine! I’m<br />
* Marina del Rey, California: DeVorss & Company, P. 74.<br />
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