From Persecution to Prison - Bellevue/NYU Program for Survivors of ...
From Persecution to Prison - Bellevue/NYU Program for Survivors of ...
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When I am talking <strong>to</strong> you now it is as if you are shaking, (he said whilewaving his hand back and <strong>for</strong>th <strong>to</strong> express the motion he sees). WhenI’m nervous, I shiver from the inside and sweat… When I’m doingsomething and then it comes <strong>to</strong> my mind that I’m in prison and I don’tknow what will happen <strong>to</strong> me, I feel as if my heart… it starts pumpingvery fast. I feel like someone who just received a message that his relativedied…When I think <strong>of</strong> all these things I’m going through, I feel sorestless I don’t want anyone <strong>to</strong> come near me.Extreme agitation was a common symp<strong>to</strong>m, echoed by an asylumseeker, who believed her psychological health had “become much worse”during her time in detention:Too much anger, I talk a lot now, [I am] agitated, nightmares are worse.I can’t remember things anymore; it’s becoming a blur. [I am] alwaysfrightened.A victim <strong>of</strong> <strong>to</strong>rture described how the feeling <strong>of</strong> being trapped left himwith trouble sleeping, headaches, restlessness and recurrent nightmares.He now trembles frequently. “I never had this problem be<strong>for</strong>e,” he said.Many candidly described the onset <strong>of</strong> symp<strong>to</strong>ms in their homelandafter <strong>to</strong>rture or persecution. Yet most emphasized how detention hadaggravated the symp<strong>to</strong>ms. For example, one detainee was a young womanfrom West Africa whose husband was <strong>to</strong>rtured in prison as a result <strong>of</strong> hispolitical beliefs. After he fled <strong>to</strong> the US, she was raped on three occasionsby soldiers who were searching <strong>for</strong> her husband. When she came <strong>to</strong> the US<strong>to</strong> join him, she was placed in detention.Since being in detention, I think more and more about the rape. I thinkabout being with my husband and having freedom. Here I am lockedup, and every day is the same. And I’m thinking about what happened<strong>to</strong> me…I keep seeing those people and what happened <strong>to</strong> me.After 9 months in detention she was released and allowed <strong>to</strong> apply <strong>to</strong>share her husband’s asylee status.One subject came <strong>to</strong> the US after having been brutally raped in amakeshift cell, where he was being held by politically motivated kidnappers.After 3 months <strong>of</strong> detention, he said,I feel a relief that it’s well-lit and safe here, compared <strong>to</strong> my country. Butthis is a jail, nevertheless… [I am] worried about the term <strong>of</strong> my detention…You’ve replaced one disease with another one.Three months later, this detainee reported his mental state had significantlyworsened.It is terrible. I can’t explain why I’m detained. You are a victim [in this situation]...when I first came here I thought it’s where they protect people,66 FROM PERSECUTION TO PRISON