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father striking oil, and, with tunnel vision—thank you, vodka—Louis chases down Harry. Because no. Fuck no. He may be drunk. This day may have been random and weird and complicated. They may not have talked. But Louis is not going to just let Harry leave without acknowledging him. Not after yesterday. Not after Louis smiled at him. And looked for him because he was worried. And stared at his window the night he returned after he’d went missing. Not after he put his drunken ass to bed all those weeks ago and brushed the frizz out of his eyes and wiped the crust off of his mouth. No. So Louis drunkenly surges forward, grabbing Harry by the arm. And he hasn’t thought this out. “You’re going to tutor me on Monday, then?” he asks drunkenly. And what? No—fuck, that is not what Louis wanted to say at all. But Harry blinks blearily, smiling through the fog. “’Course, Louis Tomlinson. I’ll make you proper smart. Just you wait, laddy lad.” And he makes to go, but it’s not enough. Louis catches his arm again. “Are you all right?” he asks bluntly, taking a step closer, and by this point, Harry’s harem begins to thin out, walking ahead with hyena laughter as they pile out the door and to the awaiting car. Harry’s good humor falters. “Why the fuck are you always asking me that?” he growls, pulling his arm away, but Louis steps even closer, staring as intently as he can into those eyes before him despite the swells of intoxication that are swiftly engulfing every sense of reasoning he has. “Yesterday,” is all Louis can manage, and Harry’s scowl fades the tiniest bit as he searches Louis’ face with something akin to confusion. Or is it bafflement? Whatever it is, it has Louis stepping even closer, their toes now touching. “Did you find him?” he asks, quieter now, but just as slurred, and he doesn’t know where the question came from or what it really means or if it’s too personal for Harry to answer, but he doesn’t blink as he registers the changes of emotions in Harry’s face, just continues to stare. Louis expects him to just walk away as he always does, just turn around and stalk off after the parade and into that car, but Harry doesn’t move, the corners of his eyes pinching and his mouth twisting uncomfortably. A loose curl falls into his eyes. “No,” he all but whispers, keeping Louis’ gaze, and even amidst the blaring music from the inhouse speakers and Niall’s laughter, Louis can swear he hears the boy’s breath and nothing else. He stares at the brittle shadow before him, the exhaustion, the helplessness and the fear etched in his irises and creases, and Louis echoes the quietly pained ‘no’ in his mind over and over, and he knows now that, yep, most definitely, Harry is not indeed all right. “Harry—“ he begins, reaching out for his arm, but then a sea of other arms suddenly engulf the boy, tanned skin clutching at his jumper and his unkempt curls, as they shout their laughter and pull him in their direction. “C’mon Harold!” “We’ve not got all night!” “Styles! Don’t be a bore now!” And Harry’s eyes, thick and lost and murky, fix on Louis, even as he’s dragged backwards
through the house, stumbling over limbs and oriental rugs, never blinking once, until the door closes and Louis is left alone, vaguely wondering if he’s begun to drown as well. Chapter End Notes The song for this chapter is Coldplay's "Paradise." It's what I feel. Thank you for reading the story that never ends! I cherish you all, my little darlings. :- *
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existence, Louis can’t help but n
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* The next day, Louis awakens with
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thanks.” “Of course you can! Do
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inging a hand to his artfully dishe
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ight?—“so I think I’ll just s
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“Of course!” “I’ll be ready
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With a smug bounce to his step, Lou
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III Chapter Summary And now Zayn ap
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far too many assignments, Jesus Chr
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“I just got it. It’s from a per
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order anything!!” The girl is loo
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He stares as Niall begins plucking
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“A party hosted by Zayn Malik.”
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But, of fucking course, the chaos f
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** After Louis is nice and scrubbed
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there’s a note on the bed with a
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No response, the music still drifti
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As one, they both look up. While th
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Giggling slightly, eyes planted on
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mocking, the beginnings of a crooke
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however.” Louis grips the armrest
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“Well, thanks again, mate. I had
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Fun times, folks. Thanks for readin
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“Niall, I’m going to set him on
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“Oh yeah. He’s a right fuckin
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“No particular reason. He’s jus
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“What do you mean it gives you so
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“Right, I’m telling him to pick
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VII Chapter Summary Harry Styles ho
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Louis smiles at that and nods, genu
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Are there people in the world who a
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Harry’s smile falters. “No I do
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fresh!” Zayn smiles, taking a sip
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good party, Louis can give him that
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VIII Chapter Summary Zayn Malik hos
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“I’ve no time for gentle.” Ni
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He nods. “Born that way. But you
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He retraces his steps from that ver
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These are his people. They understa
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It’s great, really. Splendid, eve
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he then asks, jerking a thumb in Lo
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planning it out or anything,” Lou
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“MUM. Maggie’s only FOUR. Get b
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and repeating the gesture with Liam
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Louis perks up as he pretends to fo
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Louis smiles cheekily and dabs a qu
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Because oh yeah, they’re immortal
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Louis hears the coarse words echoed
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All in all, Louis is winning at lif
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Where would he go? No point in walk
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disgust and curiosity, his rose lip
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the piano with one hand, turning hi
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Louis watches him, pressed on the o
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why hadn’t he prepared for situat
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… Except that Harry isn’t even
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XI Chapter Summary Louis returns fr
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vicious bruise near his right nippl
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** Louis still isn’t thinking abo
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Louis blinks, Niall’s piano playi
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So there’s that. Harry. Harry who
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Louis’ liking—Zayn exits into h
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earlier. He doesn’t think it was.
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“What are you doing?” “Follow
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form. The air is still. A lone bird
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crumpled paper is found. He sits up
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What affects Niall so little has be
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“So, I’m wondering. Because Har
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But now, as Louis is entering Harry
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Harry blinks, confused. “So. You
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Harry seems caught by the subject,
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Harry nods to himself, determined,
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Harry shrugs. “I asked, so.” He
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XX Chapter Summary Harry gets a pho
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Harry’s head snaps up before it f
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And Louis doesn’t know what that
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XXI Chapter Summary Harry laughs. C
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“Right. Well. On another note. I
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screen highlighting the creases of
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Niall pauses, turning around, his e
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gaze to the wall. His face is light
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Harry glances up at him. Louis wait
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down at his own outfit—maroon ski
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faintly aware that the others are s
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Harry’s gaze continues to cut him
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“You know I’m not good at being
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whateverthehell else you want to sh
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Louis sighs, long and suffering, be
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“Correct again.” There’s a pa
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“Course it is. Now. Time to study
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Harry, he’ll know that he’s sai
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passionate argument. “I’m sorry
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Harry smirks but it doesn’t reach
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While Harry is nowhere to be seen.
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teacup in lazy circles, and his eye
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depth. He really is that person Lou
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Yeah. No. Louis definitely can’t
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‘U ok?’ has been sent about thi
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majority) don’t want anybody else
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Louis is absolutely a masochist. He
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whatever expression it deems worthy
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“Harold,” Niall mockingly corre
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scene before him. It’s Harry. And
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“Who did this to you?” he deman
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is just too tired to care. When he
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But it doesn’t get any easier. He
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And fuck. It’s just a lot. Amidst
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It’s heartbreaking, really. And L
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oll down his neck and under his shi
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he straightens his jacket, stares o
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‘Goodnight Harry’ He doesn’t
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Which…thank fuck for Niall. Becau
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Which only grows larger when Harry
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with his mum and she’s not half a
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his every limb and singing his name
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“Well, Harry’s the…friend. An
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There’s a soft knock on the door.
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‘Thank you, Curly. Happy Louis Da
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That’s what Harry sent him? It’
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hiccup? “Hmm, well, I wouldn’t
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“Goodnight, Louis Tomlinson.” T
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Because, see, Harry had texted him
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the fibers of his clothes and the f
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“A little party never killed nobo
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edge of a precipice, and there’s
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“Fuck’s sake, Harry! This isn
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Chapter End Notes So. There are two
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And that was definitely a complimen
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gross, but Louis will allow it this
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control over his sensations, wants
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is beautiful. Obviously. “I want
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** When Louis returns home late tha
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** It’s late in the evening on a
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Louis is lying atop his tattoo, pro
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And it’s sweet, it really is, bec
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“A lot of things.” He turns to
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scribbled all those months ago that
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“I don’t agree.” Niall snorts
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So Louis sits beside him. “Where
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XXVIII Chapter Summary Louis tries
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Louis watches him closely, gazing a
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linking hard, before opening his ey
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Louis’ fingernails dig into his p
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slurs, happy, sliding his hands acr
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Louis sighs, sniffing at a glass fi
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“I don’t give a fuck, Niall. Le
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Harry stares at the note, his face
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this isn’t me being…whatever it
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“Everything.” “Harry?” “Y
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He remembers seeing Harry’s face
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Louis and never lets him go. He nev
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XXIX Chapter Summary Louis gets a v
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most oblivious, self-centered—“
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“Chat about what exactly?” Loui
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“Why’s he coming?” Louis asks
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Harry’s staring at him, standing
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Feeling pins and needles pricking h
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“Perhaps.” The tone is cold.
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Another silence. Charles stares har
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words. Can only register the shock
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arely above a whisper, maybe to him
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Anywho. I have a simple request for
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to perform live. I think he’s jus
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“Congrats, mate,” Niall grins b
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No reply comes, just a bitten lip a
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‘Keep writing them.' That’s why
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etween two fingers. And fuck. Insta
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It’s only about a half hour later
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Harry seems to catch them, his eyes
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Louis to wonder if he should questi
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A silent, betraying streak of jealo
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too much to bear, and who has just
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Even if it kills Louis. He won’t
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“Does Harry know about all this?
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struggle and if Louis had thought t
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Thud, thud, thud. “He’s a needy
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Louis’ heart lurched. Unthinkingl
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Niall rolled his eyes while opening
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“Don’t fuck it up!” Louis had
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poison that is Harry Styles. Harry
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aware state of mind, when we met. I
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“Yeah, ‘course we can,” Louis
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you do.” And. Oh fuck. Louis trie
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Startled, Louis blinks, his hand dr
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He’s dizzy now, gasping and dry a
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XXXII Chapter Summary Louis confess
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“It’s good to see you,” she s
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They have dessert while they play v
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everything is sharp and cold as he
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puffy. Her long hair is catching in
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The trickle turns into a flood. “
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“He had the fucking audacity to t
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What had been ostentatious, unbeara
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feel ashamed of his tears or feel w
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“So it’s decided, then?” he a
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Then. At last. “Tonight,” Harry
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Instead, in his haste to collapse a
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Louis’ thoughts are on overload.
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Louis, hand still on the door handl
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Harry’s eyes have widened—is th
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“No,” Harry insists in a mumble
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“He told me everything,” he’d
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Chapter End Notes THERE WILL BE AN
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“No, Lou! No, that one’s too lo
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his words with a smile, “I did pi
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“No whiskey?” Louis jokes, glan
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“Let us eat,” Harry finishes, b
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“Have Niall get it.” “Niall
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minute he walks through the door, c
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“It’s about the flat, isn’t i
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“And you’ll visit him with me?
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Liam is with a small group of the s
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“Wilde?” Louis offers, though i
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over, grabbing for Louis’ hands,
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And it comes in the form of curls,
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But Harry’s nodding, he’s noddi
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The sound of Harry’s breath is th
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