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IX Chapter Summary Louis attends a
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Louis shrugs. “It is what it is.
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“Oh, excellent. Is this a Black P
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“You won’t lose, baby,” the b
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eautifully dressed people and bubbl
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But it’s his eyes that Louis sees
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X Chapter Summary Louis sees Harry
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Harry’s door. It’s in a wonderf
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acknowledging, instead focusing his
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sound, he feels an undeniable urge
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thoughts right now. ** Eventually a
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he’s still left with one name on
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Gritting his teeth against all the
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Also, I've begun tagging pictures t
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Louis blinks. Wait, what? “Fuck.
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filled, Louis dumps the paper balls
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eyebrows. “Well, too late now.”
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“Niall, you lazy sod, I swear to
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“And then the library,” Liam co
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while Liam wears a black, glittery
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“Well, I’ve got to go the studi
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XII Chapter Summary Louis needs hel
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Dressed in a solid ebony suit and b
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“Some cannot be taught,” Harry
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There he is, Harry, and Louis does
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… Did Harry just make a joke? Or
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eing played on mute, plastered acro
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quill in the murky ink, careful to
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“Come home. Please come home,”
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And with a very slight smirk playin
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“Somewhere.” “That doesn’t
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Louis immediately notes that it’s
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encased in glass and standing on th
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Harry showed Louis all of the main
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And he takes off. “You really nee
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“Tell me to leave. Obviously.”
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He finds Harry staring down at his
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eginning to suspect Niall’s gener
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Louis rolls his eyes, but he smiles
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They arrive as one, Harry leading t
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Louis’ about to press the subject
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windows and warms against the cream
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“Yeah, because you always win,”
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Liam had introduced Louis and Niall
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exactly?) as he picks it up, examin
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father striking oil, and, with tunn
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XV Chapter Summary Louis tries. And
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“Well. We’ll just have to see,
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Niall’s face instantly morphs int
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“That’s all I’m gonna say,”
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Louis almost throws up. “Will you
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HAS NO HEART, NO SENSE OF DECENCY,
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never lifting from their downward t
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“I’m too sick to eat,” Louis
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leaving Louis a little blank. “If
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guitars than people, I reckon. But
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You’ve got to be patient with him
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this guy who I’ve never seen befo
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Louis nods. “Well, yeah. I kind o
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XVII Chapter Summary Louis thinks h
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“But it’s not as succinct, is i
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of smile that struggles to surface,
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“Yep!” Louis calls from his roo
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“All right.” And they proceed t
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PREFERABLY the "Acousticalullaby" v
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eyes of sleep and resting his feet
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costumes for the evening. And he wo
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they’d gotten ready and had some
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“Well that’s the only way to ar
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dressed as a butterfly who’s givi
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against his waistcoat and shoulder
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following the sight of the dancing
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“Something like that.” He brush
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How hadn’t he realized it was the
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XIX Chapter Summary Louis talks. Ch
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He doesn’t fall apart, he doesn
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Because Harry is acting more and mo
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“What are you doing?” Louis ask
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that much.” He pauses. “And you
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Louis’ stomach plunks down somewh
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honest, I don’t even know how to
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Whoah. There’s too much happening
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“Hey mate. I’m, uh, here to see
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“You can’t help that,” Harry
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and slip away. “I’ll see you to
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“I’ll text Zayn!” Louis sudde
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And, simple as that, they leave. **
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Liam’s head collapses into his ha
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Harry smiles in response, perfect a
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“That everything’s good,” he
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“Zayn’s,” Harry responds imme
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Harry pauses, peering up at him wit
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source blindly, never once thinking
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“Lads! I’m freezing me nuts off
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esponse. He could easily see himsel
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XXII Chapter Summary Louis finds so
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He just barely manages to push Harr
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“Much better,” he muses before
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instrument. “I’ve actually mana
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quotations on his own wrist, on the
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Harry’s eyes hold his stare for o
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A chuckle escapes Harry before he l
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fucking pretentious. And Louis, sta
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** He feels so fucking stupid. Stup
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XXIII Chapter Summary Louis doesn't
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the ankles. Without transition, he
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shrill, and both Niall and Zayn’s
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He’s greeted with a hideous glare
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have vanished, his shoulders now sl
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XXIV Chapter Summary Harry breaks.
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about somebody and showing them com
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Louis’ chest pings. “Harry,”
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know me—you don’t know shit abo
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discovered that there are more brui
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They’ve arrived in a fluster of c
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with his grandiose style (thank fuc
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Then: “Why?” But it’s not col
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XXV Chapter Summary Louis misses Ha
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Depart. Louis tries not to roll his
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“How are you? We’re so sorry we
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And shit. Here’s the crossroads.
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“No, yeah, I’ll see you at the
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“Happy Christmas, Louis,” Harry
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Stand laughs, throwing a dirty sock
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“Happy birthday, mate. Make sure
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even more from Liam which makes him
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He wonders what Harry is doing. He
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Drunk enough to call Harry. He pick
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“Oh, yes. Absolutely.” There’
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XXVI Chapter Summary Louis comes ba
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“So, just curious,” Louis says
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meeting Liam’s eyes with a firm g
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And it just feels nice. ** The nigh
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“It’s okay, Louis,” Harry say
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Harry needed a friend and here’s
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XXVII Chapter Summary Louis is over
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When they’re disguised in the neo
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to live the night, it’s Louis and
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‘Oh how I love a bit of classical
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dripping down the back of his neck
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“Don’t be a dick, Niall. Just b
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There’s a brief moment of silence
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all he can do is sit beside him, re
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Louis meets his cool gaze, guilt an
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But Harry doesn’t flinch, instead
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Louis doesn’t know. All he can do
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He’s tired, he’s cold, he’s a
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he doesn’t dare fall asleep becau
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together and nobody questions that,
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“And feel free to have as much as
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amongst the candles and crystals, a
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It’s going to be a long night. **
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looking like he maybe weed himself.
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“I fucking told you, I’m just f
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Louis beams. “Well then,” he sm
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“Say it quickly then,” Louis su
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“This was only two days ago.”
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Wow. Just wow. “Harry, you fuck,
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Two heads are smoking cigarettes on
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intoxicated, poisoned heart, is a w
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Niall must pick up on his inner tur
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“This is the darkest it’s ever
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“She didn’t know how, Louis,”
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Fuck. This. Day. Niall shoots Louis
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concerned (or is it pitying?) eyes
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A short laugh. “Good lad,” Char
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“So,” Charles begins, feet plan
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“You’ve no right to ask me thes
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lined shoulder. “I’ve heard Har
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Louis manages a smile. “As long a
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XXX Chapter Summary Harry talks. Ch
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Again, Louis glared, folding his ar
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But it’s while he’s having this
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his forehead against Louis’ fucki
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“Because he always has been,” L
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“Oh no, not at all,” Harry smil
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“Don’t want Liam to go out, to
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All thoughts of his love life fly o
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“I found her.” Louis’ stomach
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Despite the song, despite the fame,
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Here’s to a life of selfless mise
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XXXI Chapter Summary Harry trusts L
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parties are going to be sick.” Lo
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The sun travelled across the sky un
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drama, then?” And the real questi
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A smile flickered across Harry’s
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“I think we’re probably just go
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He shook his head. “They cancelle
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Zayn lighting cigarette after cigar
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Louis actually laughs at that. “T
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Is Harry in love with him? Has it f
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And Louis isn’t even completely s
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Harry resists, terrified eyes still
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Thank you for reading and being so
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Not all. Not with you, Louis. He th
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Excellent. He’s becoming a weeper
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** Just as Louis suspected, Harry d
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Louis doesn’t feel connected to h
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Neither lets go. Louis doesn’t wa
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“This isn’t Liam’s fault,”
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A smile struggles through, looks wa
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upon the walls in flickering sighs.
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Louis doesn’t know how to respond
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softening, and the electricity turn
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He swallows. “I’ll never do tha
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Mum drove me back.” Niall nods, b
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“No, please. Let me just—let me
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“Perhaps.” “Not ‘perhaps’
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It’s a mixture of relief and raw
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He feels Harry nod. “Together, ye
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Zayn swallows, smiles beatifically.
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Epilogue Chapter Summary Harry love
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thoughts in twelve different direct
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confidence. Harry blinks his surpri
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Zayn sighs, pulls him in to brush h
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And just like that, Liam laughs del
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“No,” he crackles, voice low an
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Is this real life? Louis beams, all
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us? I’m unrelenting and I’m stu
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At that, Harry smiles wider, before
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“Hey, you,” Louis breathes, nud
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Harry beams, pulls Louis in by the
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** They’re going home tomorrow. T
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He scrunches his brows inquisitivel
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Instantly, Louis stills Harry’s h
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ever harbor—fade, leaving only th