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Louis quirks an eyebrow. “Yes, Ch
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existence, Louis can’t help but n
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* The next day, Louis awakens with
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thanks.” “Of course you can! Do
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inging a hand to his artfully dishe
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ight?—“so I think I’ll just s
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“Of course!” “I’ll be ready
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With a smug bounce to his step, Lou
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III Chapter Summary And now Zayn ap
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far too many assignments, Jesus Chr
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“I just got it. It’s from a per
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order anything!!” The girl is loo
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He stares as Niall begins plucking
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“A party hosted by Zayn Malik.”
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But, of fucking course, the chaos f
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** After Louis is nice and scrubbed
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there’s a note on the bed with a
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No response, the music still drifti
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As one, they both look up. While th
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Giggling slightly, eyes planted on
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mocking, the beginnings of a crooke
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however.” Louis grips the armrest
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“Well, thanks again, mate. I had
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Fun times, folks. Thanks for readin
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“Niall, I’m going to set him on
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“Oh yeah. He’s a right fuckin
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“No particular reason. He’s jus
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“What do you mean it gives you so
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“Right, I’m telling him to pick
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VII Chapter Summary Harry Styles ho
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Louis smiles at that and nods, genu
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Are there people in the world who a
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Harry’s smile falters. “No I do
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fresh!” Zayn smiles, taking a sip
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good party, Louis can give him that
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VIII Chapter Summary Zayn Malik hos
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“I’ve no time for gentle.” Ni
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He nods. “Born that way. But you
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He retraces his steps from that ver
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These are his people. They understa
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It’s great, really. Splendid, eve
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he then asks, jerking a thumb in Lo
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planning it out or anything,” Lou
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“MUM. Maggie’s only FOUR. Get b
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and repeating the gesture with Liam
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Louis perks up as he pretends to fo
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Louis smiles cheekily and dabs a qu
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Because oh yeah, they’re immortal
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Louis hears the coarse words echoed
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All in all, Louis is winning at lif
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Where would he go? No point in walk
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disgust and curiosity, his rose lip
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the piano with one hand, turning hi
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Louis watches him, pressed on the o
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why hadn’t he prepared for situat
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… Except that Harry isn’t even
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XI Chapter Summary Louis returns fr
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vicious bruise near his right nippl
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** Louis still isn’t thinking abo
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Louis blinks, Niall’s piano playi
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So there’s that. Harry. Harry who
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Louis’ liking—Zayn exits into h
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Louis nods slowly. “Who’s Nick
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And Harry Styles. Chapter End Notes
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“What on earth are you referencin
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“You’ve had everybody,” Niall
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So then Louis squeezes harder, then
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scrawl. After moments of silence, i
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“And when you’re finished with
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“Yes you do.” “…Well, I’m
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“It’s your fucking father, isn
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“She’s going to your flat?” L
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XIII Chapter Summary Harry takes Lo
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Harry nods quietly, knuckles white,
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wallpaper, and statues that rest on
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“You quite proud of it, then?”
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So he returns to staring at the sun
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moments where he resembles a human,
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Harry eyes him, still as stone bene
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XIV Chapter Summary Louis has time
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“Where were you tho?” Niall the
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Unfortunately, Louis also thinks ab
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Liam gushes, and stares at Zayn lik
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“Exactly, Ireland. I’ll hate it
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A very long time. It was fun at fir
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He trots to the nearest porch--whic
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The rain pelts harder and Niall’s
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** It’s not long after that that
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through the house, stumbling over l
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He swallows his food thickly at the
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“You all right?” “I’ve got
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quotations on his own wrist, on the
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Harry’s eyes hold his stare for o
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A chuckle escapes Harry before he l
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fucking pretentious. And Louis, sta
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** He feels so fucking stupid. Stup
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XXIII Chapter Summary Louis doesn't
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the ankles. Without transition, he
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shrill, and both Niall and Zayn’s
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He’s greeted with a hideous glare
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have vanished, his shoulders now sl
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XXIV Chapter Summary Harry breaks.
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about somebody and showing them com
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Louis’ chest pings. “Harry,”
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know me—you don’t know shit abo
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discovered that there are more brui
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They’ve arrived in a fluster of c
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with his grandiose style (thank fuc
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Then: “Why?” But it’s not col
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XXV Chapter Summary Louis misses Ha
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Depart. Louis tries not to roll his
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“How are you? We’re so sorry we
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And shit. Here’s the crossroads.
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“No, yeah, I’ll see you at the
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“Happy Christmas, Louis,” Harry
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Stand laughs, throwing a dirty sock
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“Happy birthday, mate. Make sure
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even more from Liam which makes him
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He wonders what Harry is doing. He
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Drunk enough to call Harry. He pick
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“Oh, yes. Absolutely.” There’
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XXVI Chapter Summary Louis comes ba
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“So, just curious,” Louis says
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meeting Liam’s eyes with a firm g
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And it just feels nice. ** The nigh
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“It’s okay, Louis,” Harry say
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Harry needed a friend and here’s
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XXVII Chapter Summary Louis is over
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When they’re disguised in the neo
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to live the night, it’s Louis and
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‘Oh how I love a bit of classical
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dripping down the back of his neck
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“Don’t be a dick, Niall. Just b
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There’s a brief moment of silence
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all he can do is sit beside him, re
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Louis meets his cool gaze, guilt an
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But Harry doesn’t flinch, instead
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Louis doesn’t know. All he can do
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He’s tired, he’s cold, he’s a
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he doesn’t dare fall asleep becau
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together and nobody questions that,
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“And feel free to have as much as
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amongst the candles and crystals, a
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It’s going to be a long night. **
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looking like he maybe weed himself.
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“I fucking told you, I’m just f
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Louis beams. “Well then,” he sm
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“Say it quickly then,” Louis su
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“This was only two days ago.”
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Wow. Just wow. “Harry, you fuck,
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Two heads are smoking cigarettes on
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intoxicated, poisoned heart, is a w
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Niall must pick up on his inner tur
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“This is the darkest it’s ever
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“She didn’t know how, Louis,”
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Fuck. This. Day. Niall shoots Louis
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concerned (or is it pitying?) eyes
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A short laugh. “Good lad,” Char
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“So,” Charles begins, feet plan
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“You’ve no right to ask me thes
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lined shoulder. “I’ve heard Har
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Louis manages a smile. “As long a
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XXX Chapter Summary Harry talks. Ch
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Again, Louis glared, folding his ar
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But it’s while he’s having this
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his forehead against Louis’ fucki
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“Because he always has been,” L
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“Oh no, not at all,” Harry smil
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“Don’t want Liam to go out, to
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All thoughts of his love life fly o
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“I found her.” Louis’ stomach
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Despite the song, despite the fame,
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Here’s to a life of selfless mise
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XXXI Chapter Summary Harry trusts L
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parties are going to be sick.” Lo
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The sun travelled across the sky un
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drama, then?” And the real questi
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A smile flickered across Harry’s
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“I think we’re probably just go
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He shook his head. “They cancelle
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Zayn lighting cigarette after cigar
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Louis actually laughs at that. “T
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Is Harry in love with him? Has it f
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And Louis isn’t even completely s
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Harry resists, terrified eyes still
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Thank you for reading and being so
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Not all. Not with you, Louis. He th
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Excellent. He’s becoming a weeper
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** Just as Louis suspected, Harry d
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Louis doesn’t feel connected to h
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Neither lets go. Louis doesn’t wa
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“This isn’t Liam’s fault,”
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A smile struggles through, looks wa
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upon the walls in flickering sighs.
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Louis doesn’t know how to respond
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softening, and the electricity turn
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He swallows. “I’ll never do tha
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Mum drove me back.” Niall nods, b
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“No, please. Let me just—let me
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“Perhaps.” “Not ‘perhaps’
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It’s a mixture of relief and raw
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He feels Harry nod. “Together, ye
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Zayn swallows, smiles beatifically.
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Epilogue Chapter Summary Harry love
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thoughts in twelve different direct
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confidence. Harry blinks his surpri
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Zayn sighs, pulls him in to brush h
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And just like that, Liam laughs del
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“No,” he crackles, voice low an
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Is this real life? Louis beams, all
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us? I’m unrelenting and I’m stu
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At that, Harry smiles wider, before
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“Hey, you,” Louis breathes, nud
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Harry beams, pulls Louis in by the
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** They’re going home tomorrow. T
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He scrunches his brows inquisitivel
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Instantly, Louis stills Harry’s h
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ever harbor—fade, leaving only th