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Louis quirks an eyebrow. “Yes, Ch
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existence, Louis can’t help but n
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* The next day, Louis awakens with
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thanks.” “Of course you can! Do
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inging a hand to his artfully dishe
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ight?—“so I think I’ll just s
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“Of course!” “I’ll be ready
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With a smug bounce to his step, Lou
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III Chapter Summary And now Zayn ap
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far too many assignments, Jesus Chr
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“I just got it. It’s from a per
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order anything!!” The girl is loo
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He stares as Niall begins plucking
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“A party hosted by Zayn Malik.”
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But, of fucking course, the chaos f
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** After Louis is nice and scrubbed
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there’s a note on the bed with a
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No response, the music still drifti
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As one, they both look up. While th
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Giggling slightly, eyes planted on
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mocking, the beginnings of a crooke
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however.” Louis grips the armrest
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“Well, thanks again, mate. I had
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Fun times, folks. Thanks for readin
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“Niall, I’m going to set him on
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“Oh yeah. He’s a right fuckin
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“No particular reason. He’s jus
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“What do you mean it gives you so
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“Right, I’m telling him to pick
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VII Chapter Summary Harry Styles ho
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Louis smiles at that and nods, genu
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Are there people in the world who a
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Harry’s smile falters. “No I do
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fresh!” Zayn smiles, taking a sip
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good party, Louis can give him that
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VIII Chapter Summary Zayn Malik hos
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“I’ve no time for gentle.” Ni
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He nods. “Born that way. But you
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He retraces his steps from that ver
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These are his people. They understa
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It’s great, really. Splendid, eve
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he then asks, jerking a thumb in Lo
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planning it out or anything,” Lou
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“MUM. Maggie’s only FOUR. Get b
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and repeating the gesture with Liam
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Louis perks up as he pretends to fo
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Louis smiles cheekily and dabs a qu
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Because oh yeah, they’re immortal
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Louis hears the coarse words echoed
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All in all, Louis is winning at lif
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Where would he go? No point in walk
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disgust and curiosity, his rose lip
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the piano with one hand, turning hi
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Louis watches him, pressed on the o
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why hadn’t he prepared for situat
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… Except that Harry isn’t even
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XI Chapter Summary Louis returns fr
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vicious bruise near his right nippl
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** Louis still isn’t thinking abo
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Louis blinks, Niall’s piano playi
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So there’s that. Harry. Harry who
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Louis’ liking—Zayn exits into h
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Louis nods slowly. “Who’s Nick
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And Harry Styles. Chapter End Notes
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“What on earth are you referencin
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“You’ve had everybody,” Niall
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So then Louis squeezes harder, then
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scrawl. After moments of silence, i
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“And when you’re finished with
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“Yes you do.” “…Well, I’m
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“It’s your fucking father, isn
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“She’s going to your flat?” L
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XIII Chapter Summary Harry takes Lo
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Harry nods quietly, knuckles white,
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wallpaper, and statues that rest on
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“You quite proud of it, then?”
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So he returns to staring at the sun
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moments where he resembles a human,
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Harry eyes him, still as stone bene
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screen highlighting the creases of
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Niall pauses, turning around, his e
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gaze to the wall. His face is light
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Harry glances up at him. Louis wait
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down at his own outfit—maroon ski
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faintly aware that the others are s
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Harry’s gaze continues to cut him
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“You know I’m not good at being
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whateverthehell else you want to sh
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Louis sighs, long and suffering, be
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“Correct again.” There’s a pa
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“Course it is. Now. Time to study
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Harry, he’ll know that he’s sai
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passionate argument. “I’m sorry
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Harry smirks but it doesn’t reach
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While Harry is nowhere to be seen.
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teacup in lazy circles, and his eye
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depth. He really is that person Lou
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Yeah. No. Louis definitely can’t
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‘U ok?’ has been sent about thi
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majority) don’t want anybody else
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Louis is absolutely a masochist. He
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whatever expression it deems worthy
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“Harold,” Niall mockingly corre
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scene before him. It’s Harry. And
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“Who did this to you?” he deman
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is just too tired to care. When he
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But it doesn’t get any easier. He
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And fuck. It’s just a lot. Amidst
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It’s heartbreaking, really. And L
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oll down his neck and under his shi
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he straightens his jacket, stares o
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‘Goodnight Harry’ He doesn’t
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Which…thank fuck for Niall. Becau
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Which only grows larger when Harry
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with his mum and she’s not half a
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his every limb and singing his name
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“Well, Harry’s the…friend. An
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There’s a soft knock on the door.
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‘Thank you, Curly. Happy Louis Da
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That’s what Harry sent him? It’
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hiccup? “Hmm, well, I wouldn’t
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“Goodnight, Louis Tomlinson.” T
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Because, see, Harry had texted him
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the fibers of his clothes and the f
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“A little party never killed nobo
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edge of a precipice, and there’s
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“Fuck’s sake, Harry! This isn
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Chapter End Notes So. There are two
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And that was definitely a complimen
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gross, but Louis will allow it this
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control over his sensations, wants
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is beautiful. Obviously. “I want
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** When Louis returns home late tha
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** It’s late in the evening on a
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Louis is lying atop his tattoo, pro
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And it’s sweet, it really is, bec
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“A lot of things.” He turns to
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scribbled all those months ago that
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“I don’t agree.” Niall snorts
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So Louis sits beside him. “Where
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XXVIII Chapter Summary Louis tries
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Louis watches him closely, gazing a
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linking hard, before opening his ey
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Louis’ fingernails dig into his p
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slurs, happy, sliding his hands acr
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Louis sighs, sniffing at a glass fi
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“I don’t give a fuck, Niall. Le
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Harry stares at the note, his face
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this isn’t me being…whatever it
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“Everything.” “Harry?” “Y
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He remembers seeing Harry’s face
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Louis and never lets him go. He nev
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XXIX Chapter Summary Louis gets a v
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most oblivious, self-centered—“
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“Chat about what exactly?” Loui
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“Why’s he coming?” Louis asks
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Harry’s staring at him, standing
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Feeling pins and needles pricking h
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“Perhaps.” The tone is cold.
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Another silence. Charles stares har
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words. Can only register the shock
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arely above a whisper, maybe to him
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Anywho. I have a simple request for
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to perform live. I think he’s jus
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“Congrats, mate,” Niall grins b
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No reply comes, just a bitten lip a
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‘Keep writing them.' That’s why
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etween two fingers. And fuck. Insta
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It’s only about a half hour later
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Harry seems to catch them, his eyes
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Louis to wonder if he should questi
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A silent, betraying streak of jealo
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too much to bear, and who has just
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Even if it kills Louis. He won’t
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“Does Harry know about all this?
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struggle and if Louis had thought t
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Thud, thud, thud. “He’s a needy
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Louis’ heart lurched. Unthinkingl
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Niall rolled his eyes while opening
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“Don’t fuck it up!” Louis had
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poison that is Harry Styles. Harry
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aware state of mind, when we met. I
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“Yeah, ‘course we can,” Louis
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you do.” And. Oh fuck. Louis trie
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Startled, Louis blinks, his hand dr
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He’s dizzy now, gasping and dry a
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XXXII Chapter Summary Louis confess
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“It’s good to see you,” she s
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They have dessert while they play v
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everything is sharp and cold as he
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puffy. Her long hair is catching in
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The trickle turns into a flood. “
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“He had the fucking audacity to t
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What had been ostentatious, unbeara
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feel ashamed of his tears or feel w
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“So it’s decided, then?” he a
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Then. At last. “Tonight,” Harry
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Instead, in his haste to collapse a
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Louis’ thoughts are on overload.
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Louis, hand still on the door handl
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Harry’s eyes have widened—is th
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“No,” Harry insists in a mumble
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“He told me everything,” he’d
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Chapter End Notes THERE WILL BE AN
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“No, Lou! No, that one’s too lo
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his words with a smile, “I did pi
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“No whiskey?” Louis jokes, glan
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“Let us eat,” Harry finishes, b
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“Have Niall get it.” “Niall
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minute he walks through the door, c
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“It’s about the flat, isn’t i
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“And you’ll visit him with me?
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Liam is with a small group of the s
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“Wilde?” Louis offers, though i
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over, grabbing for Louis’ hands,
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And it comes in the form of curls,
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But Harry’s nodding, he’s noddi
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The sound of Harry’s breath is th
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Anyway. So, thank you all so, so mu