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TERRY LUSTY 21<br />
St. Joseph’s School, Cross Lake, MB So St. Joseph’s.<br />
HOW OLD WERE YOU WHEN YOU FIRST WENT IN?<br />
Three. Three years old.<br />
Every morning we went to church service. Every<br />
evening was Benediction. Everyday. And with me it<br />
got to a point where I was just saturated with religion.<br />
I turned my back on it later because it was just<br />
overwhelming. You virtually lived, ate, and breathed<br />
religion.<br />
In school you had catechism. You had the Bible and<br />
the prayers and all the Latin, learning the Latin words.<br />
I can still spiel them off today, even though I haven’t<br />
used it for so many years. But don’t ask me what they<br />
mean. But as if that wasn’t enough, on top of that<br />
because I had a singing voice, I had to be part of the<br />
choir. I had to be an altar boy. I had to be a server, eh.<br />
So I had all this going on.<br />
Just to put a little icing on the cake, one of my duties<br />
every day apart from other things like working in the<br />
kitchen or the fields or laundry room or whatever, was<br />
I was the one who had to dust and sweep and clean<br />
up and mop the chapel every day. I never got away<br />
from that religious element in the system.<br />
One other thing that I always remember so much<br />
too is whenever I was in there, it was like I was in<br />
there forever because I never got to go out of there,<br />
except for the odd time when we were allowed off<br />
the grounds supervised, or if we snuck out on our<br />
own. We would do that also on Halloween night. We<br />
would sneak out of there and challenge other kids to<br />
go to the cemetery next door. It was one of our rare<br />
enjoyments to see other kids get the heebie-geebies<br />
having to visit a cemetery in the middle of the night.<br />
I’ve got to backtrack now. Where was I going with<br />
this? I was going to talk about…<br />
Just before I started talking about going to the cemetery.<br />
Oh, the grounds. Confinement. I was talking<br />
about that. Especially for kids like myself, children like<br />
myself who had nobody out there for us, as a consequence<br />
of that we never had no visitors. By the same<br />
token we never got to get out of there. Kids could go<br />
out maybe at Christmas or at Easter and the summer<br />
holidays and spend time with their families outside<br />
of the residential school. But not kids like myself. We<br />
were always in there. Once a month the children were<br />
allowed a visitor; a relative or guardian, whatever. They<br />
were allowed a visitor. The front of the building where<br />
they would drive up, it had a circular driveway like this<br />
[indicating], and they would come in and stop there<br />
and pick up the kids and drive out. They would come<br />
back and it was the same routine. That would be on<br />
a Sunday. It was always on a Sunday. It would be the<br />
only day of the month when they would allow that.<br />
I used to stand at the front of the playground right parallel<br />
with the front of the building and I used to hang<br />
on that mesh fence where it was spiked at the top. I<br />
remember one time I tried to jump out of the grounds<br />
and I jumped up but I ripped one of my fingers open<br />
on those stupid spikes.<br />
I used to cling to that fence with my fingers curled<br />
around the wire and watch these people come and<br />
pick up other kids and wonder when is someone going<br />
to come for me. Nobody ever did, of course. That<br />
was kind of tough.<br />
I was very much a loner. I became a loner. When I was<br />
growing up during my first few years there, because<br />
my mother was non-Native and my dad was actually<br />
Métis, French, and Cree, I never grew up with our<br />
language. My dad apparently had understood French,<br />
Cree and English. But nothing other than English was<br />
used in those first years when I was born, so I never<br />
grew up with a Native language or the culture because<br />
I was just a baby when they threw me into the<br />
rez school. So I never had any of that. And because I<br />
had nobody, none of my relatives to visit me or anything,<br />
I never had any of that either. That’s why later<br />
on when I got on my own at 16 and began wondering<br />
about myself, who I was and where I came from and<br />
da, da, da, da, da, I couldn’t answer my questions.<br />
I had nobody to answer them for me. I guess I just<br />
didn’t have the presence of mind in those days…<br />
First of all, what happened was I had become a ward<br />
of the Childrens’ Aid Society. And they were bound<br />
by policy to not divulge any information to you. That’s<br />
why I couldn’t know who my mom was or where<br />
she was or how to contact her or anything like that.<br />
So none of this stuff was shared. I eventually had to<br />
investigate on my own and find these things out. They<br />
wouldn’t even open up to us, Childrens’ Aid, they<br />
wouldn’t let us see our own files, you know, which to<br />
me was criminal.<br />
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