The Carpathians - University of British Columbia
The Carpathians - University of British Columbia
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the farthest branch <strong>of</strong> its first fruit. Still, I think<br />
inside that old woman I never knew was a stone<br />
as there was inside my mother. Cherries,<br />
she would cry, cherries, and I would go to her<br />
if I could, my mouth a rich purple and speak to her <strong>of</strong> the hills<br />
and the solitary lark beyond the wysteria<br />
that is as real as the knife she holds as she peels<br />
the skin I wear like a shroud, whispering through whatever<br />
blood<br />
there is: you must eat child, you must eat.<br />
Held Water<br />
I have discovered I cannot bear to be<br />
with people anymore. Even the querulous love <strong>of</strong> old<br />
friends<br />
defeats me and I turn away, my face staring<br />
at the hard sleet<br />
scraping at what little is left <strong>of</strong> the trees<br />
in early spring. <strong>The</strong> bellied pods <strong>of</strong> the wysteria hold<br />
my face, upside down<br />
in minute mirrors <strong>of</strong> held water. Ice falls from the eaves.<br />
<strong>The</strong> telephone rings and like a monk I chant to myself<br />
the many names <strong>of</strong> whatever gods I can find<br />
in the temple bells <strong>of</strong> the hidden voices. I know<br />
under the rotting snow there are small flowers<br />
like insistent girls giggling in narrow attic beds,<br />
and yes,<br />
I know the flowers are not girls, just as<br />
I know that what resemblance there is is lost<br />
in the ordinary crying we think we will release<br />
and don't. <strong>The</strong> little furred pods <strong>of</strong> the wysteria crack open<br />
dropping the mirrors from their blue hands.<br />
Ice slides from the ro<strong>of</strong> and for a moment the air is torn.<br />
I think if I wasn't afraid<br />
I could play back the sounds <strong>of</strong> my friends,<br />
the measure <strong>of</strong> their voices<br />
almost steady in the hard wind out <strong>of</strong> the north.<br />
Little flawed bells.<br />
If I didn't hear them I could almost listen.