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StarCat/CatStar is dedicated to the memory of David Bowie, that cosmic subversive who’s returned at last to his ethereal home.
StarCat/CatStar is dedicated to the memory of David Bowie, that cosmic subversive who’s returned at last to his ethereal home.
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I Don’t Want to Be Sad Today<br />
By Diana May Waldman<br />
I don't want to be sad today. I don't want to linger … I want to be aware and<br />
remember … want to keep my compassion, empathy, cry, then let it go. I<br />
don't want to hear the blare of the television, the noise of the radio ... the<br />
talking heads. Don't want to listen to the arguing - the Republicans - the<br />
Democrats. Should we take the refugees or not? When we fail to remember<br />
when we wouldn't take the Jews and they died. And how we have so many<br />
Vets that are homeless and we seem to always be caught between a rock<br />
and hard space. I don't want to see the memes of people terrified someone<br />
is going to take the Christ out a Christmas or take their fucking guns. I<br />
don't want to judge you, roll my eyes and declare that I see so much fear in<br />
you. That is what scares me. That would you die for being right.<br />
And I hate pretending that I love Thanksgiving ... hate pretending that we<br />
gorge ourselves and forget what really happened. Hate knowing the truth.<br />
I don't want to be in a mall, pushed up against someone else carrying<br />
packages of things we don't need or really want, but feel we should have. I<br />
don't want the "best of."<br />
I don't want to slice an apple and think about Monsanto or fear chewing on<br />
a blade of grass.<br />
I don't like poverty and the children who live in it --and the people who<br />
judge those on food stamps, when kids have to eat.<br />
I don't like that sometimes I say stupid things out of fear. Or that I love too<br />
much sometimes and people don't always love me back. I don't like that at<br />
times - I am this open bleeding wound wanting to fix everything all the<br />
damn freaking time.<br />
I don't like that I trust way too easily and take people at face value and<br />
then feel crushed when they aren't who I thought they were.<br />
I don't like that moms used to be able to stay home and raise the children,<br />
giving them the family values and morals.<br />
Dad or Mom should be able to stay home until kids go to school ... and<br />
young people have to work twice as hard just to afford a home, while<br />
landlords gouge the rent.