A local woman missing- Mary Kubica

He says reluctantly, “They found Meredith’s pills.” I know what he
means by this. I know what the implication is. They’re blaming the
victim.
I get angry for Josh and Meredith. “Did they have a warrant to
search your house?”
He shakes his head, says remorsefully, “They didn’t need one,
Kate. I gave them permission to search. I didn’t think we had
anything to hide. We don’t have anything to hide.”
I get it. For Josh, the invasion of privacy was worth it if it meant the
police finding something that might tip them off about Meredith and
Delilah’s whereabouts. He just didn’t expect them to draw certain
conclusions when they found Meredith’s pills in the medicine cabinet.
Meredith struggled with postpartum depression after Leo was born.
She wasn’t ashamed of it. She didn’t try and keep it a secret. In fact,
she was unapologetic and unreserved, appreciating how her own
experience made her better at what she does. Meredith saw a
therapist for a while, and was put on antidepressants. The
antidepressants helped; she was in no rush to get off them, because
if they were working, then why would she be?
“So what?” I ask, wondering what Meredith’s antidepressants have
to do with anything.
“They asked a lot of questions. About her mental health. About
whether she’s ever tried to hurt herself or one of the kids.”
“My God,” Bea says, her hand going to her heart. The media has
sensationalized postpartum depression, made it out to seem like all
women who suffer are the kind to kill their children. It’s not true.
Postpartum psychosis is something else. It’s different and rare, and
even of those affected, only a small percentage do something
violent. I know because Meredith told me. She talked once about
writing a blog about the experiences of women, and this was one of
the things she considered writing about. Postpartum psychosis both
fascinated and saddened her.
“What did you tell them?” I ask.
“I told them no, of course not. Meredith is the most sound person I
know. Ask anyone, I said,” Josh tells us, and it’s true. Meredith has
always been the glass-half-full type. She teaches yoga, she
meditates. She rarely has a bad thing to say about anyone else.