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Issue 239 - Celebrating women
Issue 239 - Celebrating women
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Mair with Emily Wilson while competing in reality-TV show Tracked. The pair were runners-up.<br />
"My caregiver was a runner and a cyclist himself, and he basically got me<br />
back into running and cycling. He built me a mountain bike. I would say that<br />
was probably the beginning of my new life."<br />
She had compartmentalised what had happened to her as a<br />
child, but it came creeping back when she was 14 and playing<br />
basketball. Her boyfriend at the time - her first - reached over<br />
from behind her to try and stop her from getting the ball. The<br />
movement was a trigger. Images of an old man in a similar pose<br />
started to leak into her mind.<br />
"It started like a little crack and it just kept on cracking. I was so<br />
upset about these flashbacks. I thought I was going insane, like<br />
I'd watched too many crazy horror movies," she says.<br />
"I had severe issues at school because I started freaking out.<br />
Every time a guy came close to me, I started having these<br />
anxiety attacks. It really changed me from this happy, active<br />
teenager to being severely depressed, just not going out<br />
anymore. It was like a switch."<br />
She even tried to kill herself, but failed in what she now says<br />
was a cry for help rather than a wish to die.<br />
When she eventually opened up to her parents about the<br />
flashbacks, her mother said that she'd actually told her about<br />
"the weird things the neighbour was doing" a decade earlier. But<br />
her parents hadn't known what to do, so they did nothing except<br />
ensure she didn't go next door anymore.<br />
"When your mum tells you you're not actually crazy and these<br />
things actually happened, I was like, 'What?!' I felt like I got<br />
stabbed in my heart."<br />
At age 15, she dropped out of school and started working in a<br />
bakery, but her struggles were far from over. First came selfharm,<br />
cutting herself with glass. "It sounds like a paradox, but<br />
somehow creating pain can numb you from pain."<br />
Then came anorexia, which she now says was a coping<br />
mechanism: seizing control of something in the face of<br />
something she couldn't control - her past.<br />
She eventually began throwing up so much that her kidneys<br />
started failing and she had to be hospitalised. After collapsing in<br />
a nightclub on New Year's Eve in 1997, Maier went into rehab<br />
for several months.<br />
When she came out, she was encouraged to live in a home<br />
associated with the rehab clinic where caregivers were assigned<br />
to each patient. For Maier, this was the turning point.<br />
"My caregiver was a runner and a cyclist himself, and he<br />
basically got me back into running and cycling. He built me a<br />
mountain bike. I would say that was probably the beginning of<br />
my new life."<br />
She still remembers the first time they went running together,<br />
barely covering a single kilometre. "But I was so happy, just<br />
being out there, and having someone to get me out running<br />
again - so much joy."<br />
Maier had had a precocious appetite for sports when she was<br />
young - competitive athletics, gymnastics, soccer, basketball,<br />
volleyball. Being active again rekindled something, like a<br />
reclaiming of what she'd always loved. By the time she turned<br />
26, she'd started competing in triathlons and had done her first<br />
ironman event.<br />
"Sport just always made me feel so alive. I always biked the long<br />
way to work. One year, I biked 50km every day. And when you<br />
have a bad day, you can just go out for a run and you feel so<br />
much better."<br />
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