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喺 呢 條 橋 其 實 心 情 好 複 雜 , 因 為 一 方 面 我 自 己 都 想 走 , 但 有 另 一 方 面 我 又 好 想<br />
留 低 。 想 走 嘅 原 因 係 自 己 唔 知 會 困 到 幾 時 , 同 埋 有 咩 方 法 嘅 話 都 可 以 嘗 試 吓 ,<br />
但 係 最 尾 都 無 咁 走 到 。 其 實 我 都 唔 肯 定 究 竟 當 時 係 因 為 邊 個 因 素 而 決 定 唔 走 ,<br />
第 一 我 覺 得 太 危 險 , 你 喺 呢 度 衝 咗 出 去 可 能 又 要 跑 好 耐 , 你 嘅 體 力 唔 知 有 無 ,<br />
因 為 你 都 困 咗 喺 度 幾 日 , 精 神 同 體 力 都 要 好 充 足 先 可 以 一 路 跑 過 去 。 成 條 橋 ,<br />
落 完 去 仲 要 再 入 村 嗰 啲 , 我 好 驚 喺 途 中 被 人 捉 咗 去 , 喺 無 記 者 嘅 情 況 下 俾 人 拉<br />
都 唔 知 , 去 邊 都 唔 知 , 可 能 翻 咗 大 陸 都 唔 知 , 所 以 我 放 棄 咗 呢 樣 嘢 。 另 一 方 面<br />
就 係 喺 A core 其 實 仲 有 好 多 手 足 喺 度 抗 爭 緊 , 呢 一 刻 走 咗 , 我 好 似 好 衰 仔 咁 ,<br />
有 種 背 叛 ……? 其 實 又 唔 一 定 係 背 叛 , 但 係 …… 因 為 走 嗰 班 人 其 實 都 已 經 頂 唔<br />
順 , 佢 哋 嘅 精 神 同 體 力 都 可 能 已 經 不 足 ; 但 係 我 仲 郁 到 嘅 時 候 , 我 就 覺 得 點<br />
都 想 翻 去 幫 一 幫 佢 哋 , 睇 吓 情 況 係 點 , 見 步 行 步 啦 。 兩 邊 都 危 險 嘅 , 咁 我 選 擇<br />
留 低 去 睇 吓 有 咩 進 展 , 再 幫 一 幫 。 見 到 嗰 陣 時 都 有 啲 手 足 話 :「 你 翻 翻 去 幫 A<br />
core 手 足 呀 ? 你 唔 走 喇 咩 ?」, 其 實 我 覺 得 自 己 崩 潰 咗 , 好 彩 有 一 班 人 留 低 幫<br />
佢 哋 , 唔 係 全 部 都 走 晒 , 淨 低 佢 哋 喺 度 。<br />
I had mixed feelings about this overpass. On the one hand I wanted to escape, on<br />
the other I wanted to stay. I wanted to leave because I didn’t know how long I’d be<br />
stranded, so I’d try anything that worked. In the end I stayed. I wasn’t sure what<br />
factors contributed to my decision; it could be that I thought it was too dangerous,<br />
because once you crossed the overpass there was a long way to run. I wasn’t sure if I<br />
had the physical strength, because I had been stranded for a few days, and you need<br />
all your mental and physical strength to make it across, then plot an escape into the<br />
housing estates. I was afraid I would be caught halfway, and without reporters there<br />
was no telling what would happen – they might even take me to the mainland. So I<br />
gave up. Besides, there were many in A Core who were still fighting, and if I left at<br />
that time, I felt like I was betraying them. Well, betrayal might be too strong a word...<br />
but those who left were physically and mentally exhausted; in comparison, I still had<br />
some strength left. I chose to go back and lend a hand where needed. Both choices<br />
involved some risk, so I chose to stay and help. Some of my fellow protestors saw me<br />
and said, “You’re going back to A Core? Aren’t you just leaving?” I almost burst into<br />
tears. There were some who stayed behind to help; they didn’t all go, leaving the rest<br />
to fend for themselves.<br />
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