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While we are not supposed to rely on miracles and have to do<br />
everything that is normaly required in order to achieve results<br />
SHAAREI TIKVAH/ CHANUKAH <strong>2009</strong><br />
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what we want is a true relationship. I learned to love and<br />
trust Hashem even when I was very disappointed that He<br />
wouldn’t give me what I wanted.<br />
Second, I realized that sometimes the only way that<br />
Hashem can get us to do what He needs is to prevent us<br />
from having what we want. I realized after having a baby<br />
that there is no way that I could have written so many<br />
books on Judaism if I had had children when I was younger.<br />
Raising children requires so much of my energy that I simply<br />
didn’t have enough left over to write books for years.<br />
Obviously, Hashem wanted me to have children, but not<br />
on my timetable. He needed certain spiritual accomplishments<br />
to occur before it was time for me to be a mother.<br />
Even though I prayed a lot, gave extra tzedakah, and did<br />
other spiritually beneficial acts that didn’t result in my having<br />
a baby, I realized in retrospect that these were not<br />
wasted. No good deed is ever wasted, even if it doesn’t get<br />
us the results or object that we want. Maybe Hashem<br />
specifically made me unable to have children for many<br />
years so that I would deepen my relationship with Him<br />
through prayer and help others by giving extra tzedakah.<br />
Without having this impetus, I would not have done either.<br />
Third, I learned what it feels like to be infertile. I have<br />
helped many other infertile people as a result by giving<br />
them medical, spiritual and emotional counseling. I learned<br />
how insensitive people could be to those who are not<br />
blessed with children.<br />
If I looked at my ordeals only as barriers to my getting<br />
what I wanted, I would have missed much of the point of<br />
life’s challenges. They are supposed to transform us, make<br />
us into more giving, caring individuals. I believe I have been<br />
able to use the suffering that I underwent to make other<br />
people’s lives easier when they are in the same boat.<br />
Fourth, I learned firsthand that Hashem controls nature.<br />
While we are not supposed to rely on miracles, and have<br />
to do everything that is normally required in order to<br />
achieve results, I was privileged to experience how the<br />
Almighty overturns nature when it suits His purposes.<br />
We are often misled into believing that what doctors<br />
tell us is the truth and that life and death are in their hands.<br />
We need to remember that doctors are only Hashem’s<br />
agents and He is the ultimate Healer and Giver of Life.<br />
When we believe only in what is rational or natural, we limit<br />
our lives. When we attach ourselves to our Creator, and to<br />
His constant providence, miracles can, and do, occur.<br />
Fifth, I realized the importance of doing <strong>Jewish</strong> rituals<br />
correctly. Life is in the details. Does it really matter if I perform<br />
a commandment this way or that way, or observe it<br />
only in my heart? The answer is yes. Just as there are prescribed<br />
dosed of medication to take when a person is sick,<br />
or specific ways of wiring a house so that machines there<br />
will function properly, spiritual matters must also be done<br />
with attention to details. Within six months of having my<br />
kesubah changed, two other infertile friends of mine had<br />
theirs changed as well. (It doesn’t take a mystic to do this,<br />
only a rabbi who is properly versed in how to write a <strong>Jewish</strong><br />
marriage document.) Each couple had been unable to have<br />
children for seven years. One couple now has three and the<br />
other has two children. The women got pregnant within a<br />
few months of having their kesubahs changed.<br />
Finally, I learned the power of prayer. We sometimes<br />
think that we should only pray as a last resort, and then<br />
when we don’t get the results we want, we don’t do it again<br />
for a long time.<br />
Learning Torah is the way that we hear Hashem talking to<br />
us. Praying is the way that we talk to Him. Every relationship<br />
requires communication with our Creator. We may not<br />
necessarily get the things that we want, but we can always<br />
have the relationship that we want. Being close to Hashem<br />
can change us so drastically that we become people who<br />
are worthy of getting blessings that are out of this world. I<br />
will forever be grateful that I got both.<br />
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Dr. Aiken is the co-author of the Art of <strong>Jewish</strong> Prayer and<br />
What Your Unborn Baby Wants You To Know. She is the<br />
author of To Be A <strong>Jewish</strong> Woman, Why Me, G-d? A <strong>Jewish</strong><br />
Guide to Coping with Suffering, Beyond Bashert: A Guide<br />
to Dating and Marriage Enrichment, and The Hidden<br />
Beauty of the Shema. Her books have been reprinted numerous<br />
times, received popular acclaim and have been distributed<br />
worldwide in English-speaking countries and Israel.<br />
To Be A <strong>Jewish</strong> Woman has also been translated into Spanish<br />
and The Art of <strong>Jewish</strong> Prayer has been translated into<br />
Portuguese. Lisa’s latest book, Guide for the Romantically<br />
Perplexed (Devora Press) is now available. She is available<br />
for speaking engagements.