Articles Book III - Pg 1-117 (Adoptees) - triadoption

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, First Mother.
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I do not lhlnk of you oflerr, but I tlritrk of vo~r sonre. rmrrt be to trrakc sorr~i,or~@ {~lvu trp scrrrlrtlrre Ilrt~v LI\.~'
IIlrtef. When 1 t~rlrrk 01 you sunrelinlcs I wonde~. 1 !;)IF say3 shc OPT no1 itrrnw a11cf WI' tvtrtl~~r?r i~r!t~'l!lt't
wo~~rler so rnairy Ihtngr. Snnrc tllinga I u~crrrder nrc Slit! IY sttrr you lovr*il nrtv very rrrtrrlr. SIL. IIIVCY 1111~
Important. Sotne tlrlrrg$ I worr~lcr I know nrc not lruly . veery rrroclr.
Irrr))orlnnt. but I catroot slop wonclcrl~rg.
1 do 1101 tl~lnk of looltlir~l
Most of all I wortder II you ever wonclcr. I wo~rder If do tltlnlc of lookltiy lor yo11 and lirrdl~r!l ybti. I llrlrtk I *
you ever think ol rne nnd worrd~v wlic!re I oma'rrd trow orrly wnrrt lo o$k yrre~ tl~esc qricsll~rr~r art11 lo krrrru~
I O I or nrnybe even wonder If I a111 .ilivc. tlresc nnsrvers, trot I tlotr't IIIIIIII of yo11 OIIPII. I tl1t11'1
They say 1 hncl n rnothcr. Evt~ryhtrdy hat1 n nrbt~rer, worry nhoui you very ~rruclr. I dot^'^ warr~lvr nl~rttrt ~1111
Before they borrr [hey hacl n rn~tlrer. Mnybtl lor n very niuch. I hopc yo11 clnri'l wn110rr nhnul rrn9 irrr~l
llttlc whllc alter tlrcy were born sorrre llcoplr lind n wcrrry nhul me nrrcl IIIIIIII nlrotrl rrri9. If you do tvirrry
mother. Some people hnve n inother for n lung tlrne and wcrndrr or thlnk nl~nut.rrrc~. I Irojrc Itrat YI will
nftcr .they arc born. Sometlrnvs peoplg hove more sn~nvlrow 5c.e this nrr~l llmt I! will l!vlp yo11 trfrl WVI!J
than one mo~lrer. You werr my first nrothpr, They sny rind no! wnnder nr~d no( rlrlnk ahuul toe loo rn~rclr. I
I did trot have you long bcc~use wlren you left rnc to lrnlre you will thlnk alto~rttrrc lrrsl a IIIIII! hit ancl 1 IIOI~V
be fourrd with my name [Was i~ truly my nnn~e'? Your YOI wIII worlder ahout pc just a little hit. I Irupt' yr1t1
name? Whose r~ntne?l and my irlrllrd~te &Vas It lr~rly won't worry about mc becauru I nrn all rlglrl nrrtl tllev
my l~lrthdatr? Ar~r,llrt~r I~lrflrcl.ri~~? Wlrose blril~rlotci'j I saw I rrrurl Irolleur ll~nt \t~~~r arc all rl!~t~t, 18111. I IIIIII~*
uas vcrv young.
y11u nrenllriyht.
I don't tl~lrrk of it ollen, but WIIEJI I thlllk I 'wrlllder . , (Tnkcn frorn fir; Wr,trorrtrr. Nov. It)77. I)ovl~:stnu.rr.
abour wtry you left trre. They soy yo11 left rrcc t~ecnusc PA],
you loved me so much nrrd'wnnted rnc to have a
better lile. They say you rnny hnvc been ashamed
becarrsc? you could not glve me a lather's nomc,and n
grnndtnolher and a home nlrd scl~ool and "n brlgl~l' . '
fulure."They sny you left me and gave me up because;
you lor~ed me. I wonder why you lell me. I, do nqt,. , ..
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understand lcavirry somcune you love.
I worrder If yoti lovcd rite. I wonder If yo11 tlroughi I: j 4
uwr a nlce looking haby. I wonder If you thought d . ': 8
long tinre before you gave rrre up. I worrder II you., :
wntched ncnrby alter you lelt me. I wondci if you '
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stood until I was found. I wonrler If you dressed mc in :
rrlce clothcs ar~d If you hallred me and fed me before
you lelt me. I worrdrr If you crlcd. I thlnk I must have
crled, I wor~der if you wondered where ilrcy look me.
I don't worry ahout you ofteri, but I sonretlmcs
worry if you are all ttghl. I worry that yori may he slck
and tttat you may need help. I worry thul you may
r~eed someone lo do your chorrr or brlng you water or
go to the storcfor you or lo make you laugh. I worry
thal you rnoy no1 have allyone to do these thlngs lor
you.
They sny you probably-have nnothet famtly now
olid !hat you could lrnvc another fomlly olter you left.
me. That Is alter you lell mc because you lovcd me so
much. I wonder if your new chlldrcn will do your
chores on? bring you water and run your errands.
TIrcy say you probably hnve new children. I wonder If
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Ihese chtldrrn do these thlngs lor you as I would l~ave
done them lor you
If I could fltrd you, If I could scc! you. II I cu~ilcl epcnk
to you. I would tell you not to thlnk 01 me, not to
wondcr, not to worry. I have a name and o lnlher and .-
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two grhr~dnrolhcr~ nrrd iwo grar~dlntlrcrs nnd n
school. Tlrry say I lrpve n bright future. I have a
mother who says slrc loves me for you and lor ire~sclf.
She knows I wonder. I osk hcr trow much love there ,
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