Discovering the New Covenant by Greg Taylor - exAdventist Outreach
Discovering the New Covenant by Greg Taylor - exAdventist Outreach
Discovering the New Covenant by Greg Taylor - exAdventist Outreach
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DISCOVERING THE NEW COVENANT<br />
with an unconfessed sin on <strong>the</strong>ir record. 5 That single sin<br />
could mean being eternally lost. As I look at it now, I<br />
believe <strong>the</strong> primary reason I was so interested in <strong>the</strong>se last<br />
day events was so that I could figure out how <strong>the</strong> events<br />
would transpire in order to know when I needed to get<br />
really serious about getting my life toge<strong>the</strong>r. I might be<br />
able to ga<strong>the</strong>r enough strength to do a last minute sprint to<br />
<strong>the</strong> end. But I knew I could not be good enough for long<br />
enough if I started too soon!<br />
As a teen, I became discouraged with <strong>the</strong> whole idea of<br />
living <strong>the</strong> Christian life. I grew increasingly aware of my<br />
total inability to live up to perfection. In fact, it seemed that<br />
I was getting worse. My body was developing, and I was<br />
struggling with new temptations. Much of <strong>the</strong> time I was<br />
failing to resist. I would respond whenever someone would<br />
make an appeal to seek God’s forgiveness, but <strong>the</strong> next day<br />
I would fall back into old patterns of thinking and behavior.<br />
I felt that I was a total failure. No one ever told me that<br />
grace was a free gift and that my forgiveness was provided<br />
past, present and future in Jesus Christ. I thought my past<br />
was forgiven in Him, but I had to do <strong>the</strong> rest. I did not<br />
understand that when we are in a relationship with Jesus,<br />
His forgiveness is ours. He will change us. In <strong>the</strong> mean<br />
time, we are counted righteous at every step of <strong>the</strong> way. No<br />
one ever told me <strong>the</strong> good news. So I became increasingly<br />
discouraged and eventually gave up entirely on <strong>the</strong><br />
Christian life. I decided that <strong>the</strong>re was no hope for me. I<br />
was going to burn anyway, so I might as well go with class.<br />
I turned my back on God altoge<strong>the</strong>r and went into a season<br />
of complete rebellion.<br />
During <strong>the</strong> next four years I did everything I could to<br />
self-destruct. As I look back on it now, I believe I had a<br />
death wish. I was so miserable. I spent those years getting<br />
high or drunk virtually non-stop. My hippie-type lifestyle<br />
had no boundaries. Yet I found no peace or rest from <strong>the</strong><br />
5 Ellen G. White, The Spirit of Prophecy, Vol. 4, pp.307-315<br />
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