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arena messed us all up pretty good, don't you think? Or do you still feel like the girl who volunteered for your<br />
sister?" she asks me.<br />
"No," I answer.<br />
"That's the one thing I think my head doctor might be right about. There's no going back. So we might as<br />
well get on with things." She neatly returns my keepsakes to the drawer and climbs into the bed across from me<br />
just as the lights go out. "You're not afraid I'll kill you tonight?"<br />
"Like I couldn't take you," I answer. Then we laugh, since both our bodies are so wrecked, it will be a<br />
miracle if we can get up the next day. But we do. Each morning, we do. And by the end of the week, my ribs feel<br />
almost like new, and Johanna can assemble her rifle without help.<br />
Soldier York gives the pair of us an approving nod as we knock off for the day. "Fine job, Soldiers."<br />
When we move out of hearing, Johanna mutters, "I think winning the Games was easier." But the look on<br />
her face says she's pleased.<br />
In fact, we're almost in good spirits when we go to the dining hall, where Gale's waiting to eat with me.<br />
Receiving a giant serving of beef stew doesn't hurt my mood either. "First shipments of food arrived this<br />
morning," Greasy Sae tells me. "That's real beef, from District Ten. Not any of your wild dog."<br />
"Don't remember you turning it down," Gale tosses back.<br />
We join a group that includes Delly, Annie, and Finnick. It's something to see Finnick's transformation since<br />
his marriage. His earlier incarnations--the decadent Capitol heartthrob I met before the Quell, the enigmatic ally<br />
in the arena, the broken young man who tried to help me hold it together--these have been replaced by someone<br />
who radiates life. Finnick's real charms of self-effacing humor and an easygoing nature are on display for the first<br />
time. He never lets go of Annie's hand. Not when they walk, not when they eat. I doubt he ever plans to. She's lost<br />
in some daze of happiness. There are still moments when you can tell something slips in her brain and another<br />
world blinds her to us. But a few words from Finnick call her back.<br />
Delly, who I've known since I was little but never gave much thought to, has grown in my estimation. She<br />
was told what Peeta said to me that night after the wedding, but she's not a gossip. Haymitch says she's the best<br />
defender I have when Peeta goes off on some kind of tear about me. Always taking my side, blaming his<br />
negative perceptions on the Capitol's torture. She has more influence on him than any of the others do, because<br />
he really does know her. Anyway, even if she's sugarcoating my good points, I appreciate it. Frankly, I could use a<br />
little sugarcoating.<br />
I'm starving and the stew is so delicious--beef, potatoes, turnips, and onions in a thick gravy--that I have to<br />
force myself to slow down. All around the dining hall, you can feel the rejuvenating effect that a good meal can<br />
bring on. The way it can make people kinder, funnier, more optimistic, and remind them it's not a mistake to go<br />
on living. It's better than any medicine. So I try to make it last and join in the conversation. Sop up the gravy on my<br />
bread and nibble on it as I listen to Finnick telling some ridiculous story about a sea turtle swimming off with his<br />
hat. Laugh before I realize he's standing there. Directly across the table, behind the empty seat next to Johanna.<br />
Watching me. I choke momentarily as the gravy bread sticks in my throat.<br />
"Peeta!" says Delly. "It's so nice to see you out...and about."<br />
Two large guards stand behind him. He holds his tray awkwardly, balanced on his fingertips since his wrists<br />
are shackled with a short chain between them.<br />
"What's with the fancy bracelets?" asks Johanna.<br />
"I'm not quite trustworthy yet," says Peeta. "I can't even sit here without your permission." He indicates the<br />
guards with his head.<br />
"Sure he can sit here. We're old friends," says Johanna, patting the space beside her. The guards nod and<br />
Peeta takes a seat. "Peeta and I had adjoining cells in the Capitol. We're very familiar with each other's<br />
screams."<br />
Annie, who's on Johanna's other side, does that thing where she covers her ears and exits reality. Finnick<br />
shoots Johanna an angry look as his arm encircles Annie.<br />
"What? My head doctor says I'm not supposed to censor my thoughts. It's part of my therapy," replies<br />
Johanna.<br />
The life has gone out of our little party. Finnick murmurs things to Annie until she slowly removes her hands.<br />
Then there's a long silence while people pretend to eat.<br />
"Annie," says Delly brightly, "did you know it was Peeta who decorated your wedding cake? Back home,<br />
his family ran the bakery and he did all the icing."