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day the parachutes went off, President Coin leads Panem now, and troops have been sent out to put down the<br />
small remaining pockets of Capitol resistance. On President Snow: He's being held prisoner, awaiting trial and<br />
most certain execution. On my assassination team: Cressida and Pollux have been sent out into the districts to<br />
cover the wreckage of the war. Gale, who took two bullets in an escape attempt, is mopping up Peacekeepers in<br />
2. Peeta's still in the burn unit. He made it to the City Circle after all. On my family: My mother buries her grief in<br />
her work.<br />
Having no work, grief buries me. All that keeps me going is Coin's promise. That I can kill Snow. And when<br />
that's done, nothing will be left.<br />
Eventually, I'm released from the hospital and given a room in the president's mansion to share with my<br />
mother. She's almost never there, taking her meals and sleeping at work. It falls to Haymitch to check on me,<br />
make sure I'm eating and using my medicines. It's not an easy job. I take to my old habits from District 13.<br />
Wandering unauthorized through the mansion. Into bedrooms and offices, ballrooms and baths. Seeking strange<br />
little hiding spaces. A closet of furs. A cabinet in the library. A long-forgotten bathtub in a room of discarded<br />
furniture. My places are dim and quiet and impossible to find. I curl up, make myself smaller, try to disappear<br />
entirely. Wrapped in silence, I slide my bracelet that reads mentally disoriented around and around my wrist.<br />
My name is Katniss Everdeen. I am seventeen years old. My home is District 12. There is no District<br />
12. I am the <strong>Mocking</strong>jay. I brought down the Capitol. President Snow hates me. He killed my sister. Now I will<br />
kill him. And then the Hunger Games will be over....<br />
Periodically, I find myself back in my room, unsure whether I was driven by a need for morphling or if<br />
Haymitch ferreted me out. I eat the food, take the medicine, and am required to bathe. It's not the water I mind,<br />
but the mirror that reflects my naked fire-mutt body. The skin grafts still retain a newborn-baby pinkness. The skin<br />
deemed damaged but salvageable looks red, hot, and melted in places. Patches of my former self gleam white<br />
and pale. I'm like a bizarre patchwork quilt of skin. Parts of my hair were singed off completely; the rest has been<br />
chopped off at odd lengths. Katniss Everdeen, the girl who was on fire. I wouldn't much care except the sight of<br />
my body brings back the memory of the pain. And why I was in pain. And what happened just before the pain<br />
started. And how I watched my little sister become a human torch.<br />
Closing my eyes doesn't help. Fire burns brighter in the darkness.<br />
Dr. Aurelius shows up sometimes. I like him because he doesn't say stupid things like how I'm totally safe,<br />
or that he knows I can't see it but I'll be happy again one day, or even that things will be better in Panem now. He<br />
just asks if I feel like talking, and when I don't answer, he falls asleep in his chair. In fact, I think his visits are<br />
largely motivated by his need for a nap. The arrangement works for both of us.<br />
The time draws near, although I could not give you exact hours and minutes. President Snow has been tried<br />
and found guilty, sentenced to execution. Haymitch tells me, I hear talk of it as I drift past the guards in the<br />
hallways. My <strong>Mocking</strong>jay suit arrives in my room. Also my bow, looking no worse for wear, but no sheath of<br />
arrows. Either because they were damaged or more likely because I shouldn't have weapons. I vaguely wonder if<br />
I should be preparing for the event in some way, but nothing comes to mind.<br />
Late one afternoon, after a long period in a cushioned window seat behind a painted screen, I emerge and<br />
turn left instead of right. I find myself in a strange part of the mansion, and immediately lose my bearings. Unlike<br />
the area where I'm quartered, there seems to be no one around to ask. I like it, though. Wish I'd found it sooner.<br />
It's so quiet, with the thick carpets and heavy tapestries soaking up the sound. Softly lit. Muted colors. Peaceful.<br />
Until I smell the roses. I dive behind some curtains, shaking too hard to run, while I await the mutts. Finally, I<br />
realize there are no mutts coming. So, what do I smell? Real roses? Could it be that I am near the garden where<br />
the evil things grow?<br />
As I creep down the hall, the odor becomes overpowering. Perhaps not as strong as the actual mutts, but<br />
purer, because it's not competing with sewage and explosives. I turn a corner and find myself staring at two<br />
surprised guards. Not Peacekeepers, of course. There are no more Peacekeepers. But not the trim, grayuniformed<br />
soldiers from 13 either. These two, a man and a woman, wear the tattered, thrown-together clothes of<br />
actual rebels. Still bandaged and gaunt, they are now keeping watch over the doorway to the roses. When I<br />
move to enter, their guns form an X in front of me.<br />
"You can't go in, miss," says the man.<br />
"Soldier," the woman corrects him. "You can't go in, Soldier Everdeen. President's orders."<br />
I just stand there patiently waiting for them to lower their guns, for them to understand, without my telling<br />
them, that behind those doors is something I need. Just a rose. A single bloom. To place in Snow's lapel before I