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My fingers wrap around Gale's wrist. "Do not leave my side," I say under my breath.<br />
"I'm right here," he answers quietly.<br />
I step through the curtain and my senses are assaulted. My first impulse is to cover my nose to block out<br />
the stench of soiled linen, putrefying flesh, and vomit, all ripening in the heat of the warehouse. They've propped<br />
open skylights that crisscross the high metal roof, but any air that's managing to get in can't make a dent in the<br />
fog below. The thin shafts of sunlight provide the only illumination, and as my eyes adjust, I can make out row<br />
upon row of wounded, in cots, on pallets, on the floor because there are so many to claim the space. The drone<br />
of black flies, the moaning of people in pain, and the sobs of their attending loved ones have combined into a<br />
wrenching chorus.<br />
We have no real hospitals in the districts. We die at home, which at the moment seems a far desirable<br />
alternative to what lies in front of me. Then I remember that many of these people probably lost their homes in the<br />
bombings.<br />
Sweat begins to run down my back, fill my palms. I breathe through my mouth in an attempt to diminish the<br />
smell. Black spots swim across my field of vision, and I think there's a really good chance I could faint. But then I<br />
catch sight of Paylor, who's watching me so closely, waiting to see what I am made of, and if any of them have<br />
been right to think they can count on me. So I let go of Gale and force myself to move deeper into the warehouse,<br />
to walk into the narrow strip between two rows of beds.<br />
"Katniss?" a voice croaks out from my left, breaking apart from the general din. "Katniss?" A hand reaches<br />
for me out of the haze. I cling to it for support. Attached to the hand is a young woman with an injured leg. Blood<br />
has seeped through the heavy bandages, which are crawling with flies. Her face reflects her pain, but something<br />
else, too, something that seems completely incongruous with her situation. "Is it really you?"<br />
"Yeah, it's me," I get out.<br />
Joy. That's the expression on her face. At the sound of my voice, it brightens, erases the suffering<br />
momentarily.<br />
"You're alive! We didn't know. People said you were, but we didn't know!" she says excitedly.<br />
"I got pretty banged up. But I got better," I say. "Just like you will."<br />
"I've got to tell my brother!" The woman struggles to sit up and calls to someone a few beds down. "Eddy!<br />
Eddy! She's here! It's Katniss Everdeen!"<br />
A boy, probably about twelve years old, turns to us. Bandages obscure half of his face. The side of his<br />
mouth I can see opens as if to utter an exclamation. I go to him, push his damp brown curls back from his<br />
forehead. Murmur a greeting. He can't speak, but his one good eye fixes on me with such intensity, as if he's<br />
trying to memorize every detail of my face.<br />
I hear my name rippling through the hot air, spreading out into the hospital. "Katniss! Katniss Everdeen!"<br />
The sounds of pain and grief begin to recede, to be replaced by words of anticipation. From all sides, voices<br />
beckon me. I begin to move, clasping the hands extended to me, touching the sound parts of those unable to<br />
move their limbs, saying hello, how are you, good to meet you. Nothing of importance, no amazing words of<br />
inspiration. But it doesn't matter. Boggs is right. It's the sight of me, alive, that is the inspiration.<br />
Hungry fingers devour me, wanting to feel my flesh. As a stricken man clutches my face between his hands,<br />
I send a silent thank-you to Dalton for suggesting I wash off the makeup. How ridiculous, how perverse I would<br />
feel presenting that painted Capitol mask to these people. The damage, the fatigue, the imperfections. That's<br />
how they recognize me, why I belong to them.<br />
Despite his controversial interview with Caesar, many ask about Peeta, assure me that they know he was<br />
speaking under duress. I do my best to sound positive about our future, but people are truly devastated when<br />
they learn I've lost the baby. I want to come clean and tell one weeping woman that it was all a hoax, a move in<br />
the game, but to present Peeta as a liar now would not help his image. Or mine. Or the cause.<br />
I begin to fully understand the lengths to which people have gone to protect me. What I mean to the rebels.<br />
My ongoing struggle against the Capitol, which has so often felt like a solitary journey, has not been undertaken<br />
alone. I have had thousands upon thousands of people from the districts at my side. I was their <strong>Mocking</strong>jay long<br />
before I accepted the role.<br />
A new sensation begins to germinate inside me. But it takes until I am standing on a table, waving my final<br />
goodbyes to the hoarse chanting of my name, to define it. Power. I have a kind of power I never knew I<br />
possessed. Snow knew it, as soon as I held out those berries. Plutarch knew when he rescued me from the<br />
arena. And Coin knows now. So much so that she must publicly remind her people that I am not in control.<br />
When we're outside again, I lean against the warehouse, catching my breath, accepting the canteen of