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"You're back," I say.<br />
"Dr. Aurelius wouldn't let me leave the Capitol until yesterday," Peeta says. "By the way, he said to tell you<br />
he can't keep pretending he's treating you forever. You have to pick up the phone."<br />
He looks well. Thin and covered with burn scars like me, but his eyes have lost that clouded, tortured look.<br />
He's frowning slightly, though, as he takes me in. I make a halfhearted effort to push my hair out of my eyes and<br />
realize it's matted into clumps. I feel defensive. "What are you doing?"<br />
"I went to the woods this morning and dug these up. For her," he says. "I thought we could plant them along<br />
the side of the house."<br />
I look at the bushes, the clods of dirt hanging from their roots, and catch my breath as the word rose<br />
registers. I'm about to yell vicious things at Peeta when the full name comes to me. Not plain rose but evening<br />
primrose. The flower my sister was named for. I give Peeta a nod of assent and hurry back into the house,<br />
locking the door behind me. But the evil thing is inside, not out. Trembling with weakness and anxiety, I run up the<br />
stairs. My foot catches on the last step and I crash onto the floor. I force myself to rise and enter my room. The<br />
smell's very faint but still laces the air. It's there. The white rose among the dried flowers in the vase. Shriveled<br />
and fragile, but holding on to that unnatural perfection cultivated in Snow's greenhouse. I grab the vase, stumble<br />
down to the kitchen, and throw its contents into the embers. As the flowers flare up, a burst of blue flame<br />
envelops the rose and devours it. Fire beats roses again. I smash the vase on the floor for good measure.<br />
Back upstairs, I throw open the bedroom windows to clear out the rest of Snow's stench. But it still lingers,<br />
on my clothes and in my pores. I strip, and flakes of skin the size of playing cards cling to the garments. Avoiding<br />
the mirror, I step into the shower and scrub the roses from my hair, my body, my mouth. Bright pink and tingling, I<br />
find something clean to wear. It takes half an hour to comb out my hair. Greasy Sae unlocks the front door. While<br />
she makes breakfast, I feed the clothes I had shed to the fire. At her suggestion, I pare off my nails with a knife.<br />
Over the eggs, I ask her, "Where did Gale go?"<br />
"District Two. Got some fancy job there. I see him now and again on the television," she says.<br />
I dig around inside myself, trying to register anger, hatred, longing. I find only relief.<br />
"I'm going hunting today," I say.<br />
"Well, I wouldn't mind some fresh game at that," she answers.<br />
I arm myself with a bow and arrows and head out, intending to exit 12 through the Meadow. Near the<br />
square are teams of masked and gloved people with horse-drawn carts. Sifting through what lay under the snow<br />
this winter. Gathering remains. A cart's parked in front of the mayor's house. I recognize Thom, Gale's old<br />
crewmate, pausing a moment to wipe the sweat from his face with a rag. I remember seeing him in 13, but he<br />
must have come back. His greeting gives me the courage to ask, "Did they find anyone in there?"<br />
"Whole family. And the two people who worked for them," Thom tells me.<br />
Madge. Quiet and kind and brave. The girl who gave me the pin that gave me a name. I swallow hard.<br />
Wonder if she'll be joining the cast of my nightmares tonight. Shoveling the ashes into my mouth. "I thought<br />
maybe, since he was the mayor..."<br />
"I don't think being the mayor of Twelve put the odds in his favor," says Thom.<br />
I nod and keep moving, careful not to look in the back of the cart. All through the town and the Seam, it's the<br />
same. The reaping of the dead. As I near the ruins of my old house, the road becomes thick with carts. The<br />
Meadow's gone, or at least dramatically altered. A deep pit has been dug, and they're lining it with bones, a<br />
mass grave for my people. I skirt around the hole and enter the woods at my usual place. It doesn't matter,<br />
though. The fence isn't charged anymore and has been propped up with long branches to keep out the<br />
predators. But old habits die hard. I think about going to the lake, but I'm so weak that I barely make it to my<br />
meeting place with Gale. I sit on the rock where Cressida filmed us, but it's too wide without his body beside me.<br />
Several times I close my eyes and count to ten, thinking that when I open them, he will have materialized without<br />
a sound as he so often did. I have to remind myself that Gale's in 2 with a fancy job, probably kissing another pair<br />
of lips.<br />
It is the old Katniss's favorite kind of day. Early spring. The woods awakening after the long winter. But the<br />
spurt of energy that began with the primroses fades away. By the time I make it back to the fence, I'm so sick and<br />
dizzy, Thom has to give me a ride home in the dead people's cart. Help me to the sofa in the living room, where I<br />
watch the dust motes spin in the thin shafts of afternoon light.<br />
My head snaps around at the hiss, but it takes awhile to believe he's real. How could he have gotten here? I<br />
take in the claw marks from some wild animal, the back paw he holds slightly above the ground, the prominent<br />
bones in his face. He's come on foot, then, all the way from 13. Maybe they kicked him out or maybe he just