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<strong>BLUSH</strong> | LEISURE & LIFESTYLE<br />
EXERCISE: is it a punishment or a celebration<br />
of what our bodies can do? The answer all depends<br />
on who you follow...<br />
There are billion-dollar industries built on keeping me feeling<br />
bad about my body and about my life in general. I am<br />
bombarded with conflicting messages of ‘love yourself’ and<br />
other self-improvement stuff. I am told that positive body image<br />
is the new diet plan – oh my mistake, because I thought it was<br />
Paleo-vegan-Keto-organic-clean eating, whole foods – that was<br />
a mouth full of ‘my bad’.<br />
Then there are the exercise plans that go along with it<br />
all; HITT, CrossFit, Orange Theory, Bootcamp, F45, Barry’s,<br />
SoulCycle... Dare I say it, but Yoga is just as bad; Bikram,<br />
Kundalini, Hatha, Vinyasa, Ashtanga all claiming to do various<br />
things to help me achieve whatever it is I think I need to<br />
improve.<br />
The best news of all, is that I don’t even have to leave<br />
home to have all this help in getting that <strong>2019</strong> body life<br />
transformation. There are countless blogs and influencers<br />
sprouting the benefits of everything I didn’t realise I need. Not<br />
only that, but my obsession with screens has also weighed in.<br />
Seriously there is an APP for everything that has anything to<br />
do with body shape, image, eating plans, wazoo detox teas,<br />
drinks and shakes, aroma therapy oils, and misting sprays that<br />
can make you sleep, feel, live better.<br />
I am guilty of having all of the above. I have on my phone<br />
right at this very moment APPs for meditating, (used six or so<br />
times), for the gym (which I actually used consistently for at least<br />
one month), a whole foods pantry guide (I can’t work it out so<br />
I’m going to delete it soon promise), aroma therapy oil mixes<br />
guide (I have opened it), power yoga (I watched it<br />
a couple of times on the couch), running log ( I use<br />
this as I do run — well kind of more a shuffle-run<br />
of sheer desperation – but more on that topic later),<br />
FitnessPal (I use this on and off to make myself feel<br />
bad for eating anything that has flavour).<br />
I don’t just have one of these APPs, I have<br />
several. All of them downloaded in the vain hope<br />
that they will somehow miraculously transform me,<br />
but alas, nope. I however, won’t give in to making<br />
any actual APP purchases – I won’t actually buy the<br />
whole APP, I just do the free ad-riddled versions<br />
that cut out when it starts to get interesting, which<br />
may I add, is probably why I am not Gigi Hadid<br />
strutting for Victoria’s Secret. Yep that’s definitely<br />
the reason.<br />
And now for my next trick I<br />
will make 10 kilos disappear<br />
and 15 kilos reappear...<br />
Last year, I lost ten kilos through literal blood, sweat and tears<br />
and a few tantrums; I had to walk to Mountain Everest Base<br />
Camp, get sick from the altitude, vomit consistently for ten days<br />
to lose that weight – maybe I should make an APP on that!<br />
When I did finally receive the recognition that I was desperate to<br />
hear – oh you look great, you’ve lost weight! – it was tarnished<br />
with despair as I knew that deep down it wasn’t going to last<br />
and I was left wishing that no one had said anything.<br />
Too make-up for the ‘failure’ that I knew was coming – the<br />
inevitable weight rebound – I proudly pranced about telling<br />
everyone how I’d lost ten kilos and have become a vegan<br />
on ethical grounds, (not really, I was still really queasy at the<br />
thought of certain foods – meat being one of them). I am sure<br />
they secretly wished that I’d hurry up and put back on those<br />
I swing from<br />
restrictive eating to<br />
all in my mouth, the<br />
classic yo-yo dieter.<br />
ten kilos and an extra<br />
five kilos. Why? Not<br />
because they dislike<br />
me or because they’re<br />
jealous... no, it’s because<br />
they feel like a failure<br />
too! They are feeling<br />
even lower now because<br />
someone managed to do<br />
it, someone else grabbed<br />
the golden ring even just for a fleeting moment.<br />
I scheduled in my fancy planner gym sessions; to roll out my<br />
yoga mat and sit in my space; I even scheduled cooking that<br />
whole-food dinner, and for those few weeks when the stars<br />
and planets aligned, I was smug and self-righteous.<br />
52 <strong>BLUSH</strong> | WINTER <strong>2019</strong> sevenstarmedia.co.uk