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<strong>BLUSH</strong> | LEISURE & LIFESTYLE<br />
Then I was not.<br />
And so, it goes; The weight goes off. The weight<br />
goes on.<br />
I call bullsh*t<br />
I am guilty, I admit that I applaud publicly the ‘plus-sized’<br />
advocates calling out body shaming, all the while quickly<br />
calculating in my head just what their weight or measurements<br />
are in relation to my own. Then I am horrified when I discover<br />
image. But to be fair, this is my issue. Maybe you are happy to<br />
refrain from sugar, eat Paleo and exercise every day at the gym...<br />
good for you! I actually truly applaud you. I can’t do this myself.<br />
I swing from restrictive eating to all in my mouth, the classic yoyo<br />
dieter. Simply put, I have zero will power. I will plan and plot,<br />
write away my life, desperately hoping I will wake up motivated<br />
and inspired, nope. I have tried 5:2. I have tried apple cider<br />
vinegar, turmeric, cayenne pepper, still no! Juicers, teas, nope!<br />
I shame myself with unflattering underwear photos, bribery,<br />
rewards, still nothing.... no inner Goddess emerging from the<br />
depths into form.<br />
You must be thinking, ‘wow she must be huge,’... nope,<br />
not huge. I am just not the shape I had decided I’d be at some<br />
stage in my life. Therefore, my life is somehow not quite right,<br />
which, by the way is also not true... my life is pretty dang epic.<br />
See what I am getting at here? There is nothing wrong with my<br />
shape, bit soft and pudgy, but I am healthy and fairly fit, and my<br />
life is blessed.<br />
Flaws and all<br />
those bodies that are plus-sized are actually smaller than I am,<br />
or the luscious curvy girls on Instagram are the same size, and<br />
all that bravo goes out the window as I shrink away privately<br />
disgusted at the shape on display – MY shape. But why? I am<br />
asking this seriously because, what am I really afraid of? Who<br />
decided what I want to look like? When did I subscribe to that?<br />
And am I that stupid or vain?<br />
Okay, quite a few serious questions there!<br />
My harshest critic<br />
Kim-Maree<br />
I started this article to look back at the crazy sh*t I have a<br />
tendency to do when trying to diet and to feel better about<br />
the way I look. As you have probably gathered it turned into a<br />
rant about evil social media, expectations, and unrealistic body<br />
Well I say Fu*k it. I am this mid-year making a deal with me<br />
and my inner Goddess... yes, she’s still there somewhere!<br />
I will be healthy, I will exercise because I like it, so I will<br />
just do the stuff at the gym I enjoy or that makes me feel<br />
satisfied. I will eat what I feel like just knowing that takes<br />
away 90% of my need for crappy foods. I am going to take<br />
time out in my day for ME, in whatever shape that may be<br />
– it could be yoga, meditation or crocheting, I will decide<br />
as I please. I am never going to be that size again; the<br />
smaller version I once was! Nor will I be twenty again, and<br />
that’s okay. I have done a lot in this Earth suit – it has held<br />
babies, rocked bikinis, and walked down the aisle, and up<br />
mountains... so, I will just let my body be what it is today,<br />
and as for tomorrow, who knows.<br />
We cannot predict what the future holds – but our<br />
choices no matter what life throws our way, are our own...<br />
and this mid-year resolution for me includes the following:<br />
To eat cake at my workplace morning teas; take long<br />
walks; wear my special occasions clothes - whenever I want;<br />
wear lipstick every day; use the best china for burgers,<br />
because let’s face it whatever it is you think you’re saving it<br />
all for may never actually come. My aim is to be my version<br />
of healthy; move how I feel; dance to my music; sleep far<br />
too much and love every dang minute of my blessed life no<br />
matter what my dress size is.<br />
To all the people out there, aside from what I say or<br />
any other person with an opinion says, know that it will<br />
be your journey with your body; your essence... so be<br />
true to your path; strive for your true self. And get some<br />
sleep. Turn off the screens – APPs and all, and be an active<br />
participant in life.<br />
Rant done!<br />
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