Issue #20 (2011) PDF - myweb - Long Island University
Issue #20 (2011) PDF - myweb - Long Island University
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Desiree Rucker<br />
TEN TO LIFE<br />
The sun slipped through the bars of his window, across the room and over Jamel‘s bed, burning<br />
through the veil of sleep. Jamel opened his eyes, He couldn‘t believe it—he was finally ten. He<br />
threw off his covers and sat up in bed. His sister Dawn slept in the twin bed next to his. She<br />
turned, and he thought she was awake, perhaps ready to start the celebration. But she was still<br />
asleep, her thumb stuck between her upturned lips, a trickle of dried spit on each side of her mouth.<br />
He thought about waking her up but decided against it. He needed this time to think about his day<br />
and the plans for his life. He sat for a moment and decided he should get up and face the world—<br />
like a man. It was already 9:00 AM, and he heard his mother in the kitchen.<br />
―Happy birthday, J,‖ his mother said without turning around from the stove. She was in her<br />
housedress, which meant she was tired or had lady issues. If she was in a good mood, she would<br />
have on shorts that were a little too tight if you asked him, but she looked good. Worry kept her<br />
thin.<br />
―You remembered. Thank you,‖ he said, pulling the wrapping paper off an action figure that<br />
sat at his place at the table.<br />
―Do I remember I was there. You want some pancakes and bacon for your birthday‖<br />
―Yeah, and some Lucky Charms, too,‖ Jamel said, making the action figure dance.<br />
―Oh, Mike ate them last night. I‘m sorry, Baby.‖<br />
Did she say Mike ate his Lucky Charms ―The whole damn box‖<br />
―Watch your mouth. You only ten, not a hundred. That is when you can curse in my<br />
house.‖<br />
Add that to the list of items he was going to kick Mike‗s ass about in another year or two.<br />
Ugly, big, stink feet, taking my Mamma money, sleeping on my couch when I come home from<br />
school so we can‘t play Nintendo; need to get the fuck out of my house, Mike.<br />
His mother placed in front of him a plate with two strips of crispy bacon, next to two<br />
banana pancakes drowned in syrup and a glass of Mountain Dew. Jamel got up and hugged her at<br />
the stove. ―Thanks for keeping me. Thanks for my birthday breakfast.‖<br />
―What you know about me keeping you Just eat,‖ she said, patting him on his head.<br />
He knew from his mother‘s sister, Alma, that his mother had made an important decision last<br />
year, one that involved crying for days before and after. Alma had come to stay with them the week<br />
of the decision and had confided to Jamel, which had made him feel like the man of the house.<br />
For a while his mamma spent more time with Jamel and Dawn when they came home from<br />
school, making special dinners and not going to play cards or across the avenue to the bar. Jamel<br />
liked that Mike wasn‘t there pretending to be in charge. Jamel didn‘t understand the whole story<br />
until his friend Ray told him that he heard that Jamel‘s mother had got rid of the baby, and Jamel<br />
asked, ―Like giving it up for adoption‖ and Ray called him stupid and said, ―No, she killed it. But<br />
it really wasn‘t a real baby, not really.‖ Jamel still didn‘t understand how it could be a baby but not a<br />
real baby, but he knew she stopped throwing up and was her old self again a few weeks later. Ray<br />
said a couple of girls he messed with had done it, but Jamel knew he was lying. Ray lied about so<br />
much stuff.<br />
Dawn shuffled out to the kitchen and plopped into a chair. She was two years younger than<br />
Jamel, but he knew he would have to tell her what day today was, and she still wouldn‘t understand<br />
the importance of this day. She would like the cake, though. His mother made the best cakes; her<br />
secret was she used two cans of frosting. The social worker had explained to him that Dawn was<br />
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