Issue #20 (2011) PDF - myweb - Long Island University
Issue #20 (2011) PDF - myweb - Long Island University
Issue #20 (2011) PDF - myweb - Long Island University
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i don't know what living is, but i think that for lily, it might have been something like disobeying<br />
mom and dad. not being perfect, for once.<br />
for me, it's being noticed. loved. i don't think either one of us is ever going to live again.<br />
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i'm sorry.<br />
i shouldn't be taking all this out on you. it's not your fault my sister died. it's not your fault you<br />
remind me of the boy she died with.<br />
what i'm doing is stalking. i shouldn't follow you home every day after school. i shouldn't scour the<br />
internet for every mention of your name.<br />
your family hangs up now when they hear my voice. you've blocked me on aim and you will not<br />
return my pokes on facebook.<br />
i want to stop. i'm trying to stop.<br />
it isn't easy. i probably won't change. i just want you to know that i'm trying.<br />
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you didn't need to go as far as you did.<br />
i was never going to hurt you. you knew that.<br />
calling the police was cruel and pointless.<br />
i'm sorry. i know you're afraid and i know you can't stand me, but did you really have to strike me<br />
so brutally<br />
my parents will kill me. they won't understand. i've hardly said a word to them since lily died and<br />
they…<br />
they'll think i'm crazy. they won't let me live with them anymore.<br />
because they don't love me, and they will be ashamed of me. and you don't know how that feels.<br />
i guess you will take out a restraining order.<br />
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