Issue #20 (2011) PDF - myweb - Long Island University

even if you message me five minutes and one second later, it will be too late. i will be gone. i will be
eating poptarts. mint chocolate poptarts, and you cannot stop me.
it hasn't been five minutes yet. are you talking to her
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you stayed away again today.
i sat at your desk while you were gone.
and told the girl with the purple hair and septum ring that today was my birthday.
she gave me an eraser.
it was shaped like a skull, which i feel like i should think is creepy. you have a shirt with a skull on it
that you wear sometimes. so it doesn't even matter that she cared about my birthday.
you'd better be back in school tomorrow. you'd better have a damn good excuse.
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i didn't mean to do what i did last night, and i'm sorry.
i can see why you thought it was creepy.
you had every right to be absent, i just didn't know. i thought you were with your girlfriend.
she was absent yesterday, too. i was so focused on you, i didn't notice until i thought about it,
but she was.
turns out, it didn't matter. you didn't see each other, you were out for different reasons. she for a
cold and you for your aunt cassandra's funeral.
i'm sorry. i know you were close to her. i didn't mean to make things worse by scaring you.
i know how you feel, i mean it.
i know how it feels to lose someone you love.
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i should probably explain that last thing.
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