Canto Cutie - Volume 3
Curated by Katherine Leung Edited by G and Tsz Kam Featuring the work of: Sally Chen | New York, USA Wandy Cheng | Toronto, Canada Cheng Tim Tim | Hong Kong Atom Cheung | Hong Kong Brenda Chi | Los Angeles, USA Brandon Chu | Hong Kong Adrienne Hugh | Hong Kong icylevs | San Diego, USA Tsz Kam | Austin, USA Kar | London, UK Steven Kin | Detroit, USA Cherie Kwok | Birmingham, UK Pamela Kwong | New York, USA Julie Lai | Hong Kong Karen Kar Yen Law | Toronto, Canada Lauren Man | Hong Kong Karon Ng | London, UK Misato Pang | St. Louis, USA PÚCA | Waterford City, Ireland Kristie Song | Irvine, USA Megan SooHoo | Los Angeles, USA J. Hyde T. | New York, USA Christina Young | New York, USA 莉子 | Hong Kong
Curated by Katherine Leung
Edited by G and Tsz Kam
Featuring the work of:
Sally Chen | New York, USA
Wandy Cheng | Toronto, Canada
Cheng Tim Tim | Hong Kong
Atom Cheung | Hong Kong
Brenda Chi | Los Angeles, USA
Brandon Chu | Hong Kong
Adrienne Hugh | Hong Kong
icylevs | San Diego, USA
Tsz Kam | Austin, USA
Kar | London, UK
Steven Kin | Detroit, USA
Cherie Kwok | Birmingham, UK
Pamela Kwong | New York, USA
Julie Lai | Hong Kong
Karen Kar Yen Law | Toronto, Canada
Lauren Man | Hong Kong
Karon Ng | London, UK
Misato Pang | St. Louis, USA
PÚCA | Waterford City, Ireland
Kristie Song | Irvine, USA
Megan SooHoo | Los Angeles, USA
J. Hyde T. | New York, USA
Christina Young | New York, USA
莉子 | Hong Kong
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金 鱼 婆 婆 Goldfish Granny
In this story, I reflect on the tender relationship I had with
a Cantonese woman who cared for me when I was young.
Goldfish Granny allowed me to feel comfortable in my
Cantonese heritage, something that I've always felt a bit
detached from. Even her name, when spoken with my
family, is a combination of Mandarin and Cantonese (we
say "goldfish" in Mandarin but "grandmother" in
Cantonese) and speaks to my identity as someone stuck
in a liminal space of these adjacent cultures. I hope to
continue making art and writing stories that explore the
complicated but hopeful relationship I have with being
Canto so I can connect with fellow Canto cuties and
deepen my understanding of our history and fight for
liberation.
I never learned her real name. She lived in a grand home
with a lacquered brown door and a fish tank brimming
with puffy red cichlids. Her floors were wooden and
glossy and I would lie on them for hours at a time,
thinking of ways I could speak to the fish. With
unblinking eyes, they’d approach me from behind the
glass and sing bubbles into the water, their pouts
opening and closing. 魚 , they said, 魚 , 魚 , 魚 . Wo, I’d
respond. Me, me, me.
After I learned how to introduce myself to them, I’d
spend the rest of the afternoons trailing Goldfish
Granny. While she tended to the weeds in her garden, I
searched for stones and hid the smoothest ones in her
pockets. That way, she wouldn’t miss me when I had to
go home for the day—it would plop out at bedtime and
she would know that I’d been thinking of her. I hoped
she knew this.
Most afternoons, she would tuck me into bed and brush
the hair from my eyes, letting the sunlight trickle onto
my lids as I fell asleep. After an hour, I’d wake to the
sound of the blender and the sweet smell of banana and
milk: her way of showing me she’d missed me too. After
sipping at the froth and then gulping down the rest, I’d
kiss the jade bracelet at the bedside table and join
Goldfish Granny at the front step. She’d help me slip into
a jacket while I fumbled with my shoelaces, glancing at
the fish as they laughed at my shoddy efforts. We’d walk
hand in hand to the grocery store a few blocks away,
sharing this bit of warmth as the sun sank lower into the
sky. I’d count the lines on the ground, gripping her hand
tight to hurdle myself over the larger cracks.
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