Hyouka - Volume 03 - The Kudryavka Sequence - Welcome to KANYA FESTA! (1)

I woke up in the middle of the night and got to thinking.
Oreki may have guessed incorrectly, but I'm not a perfectionist. While failure
is to be expected if one does not prepare or research enough, but failure also
occurs even when one has made every preparation possible. So while it's
possible for other people to fail, naturally it's also possible for me to fail as
well. So if I am to forgive others for their errors, I shouldn't be so unforgiving
to myself. Yet I'm feeling angry. Even if everyone has forgiven me,
sometimes I can't forgive myself. I can do nothing but be angry at my own
failure. But why?
A while ago, Fuku-chan told me this: "Well, Mayaka, if you think calmly
about it, it's no big matter. So you shouldn't worry too much."
"I'm not worrying. And it's not like I want to hear such common reasoning."
Fuku-chan crossed his arms and looked down while grunting deeply. Even
though he was doing it on purpose, I didn't dislike that part of him.
"...From how I see it, I don't think you've ever been this angry regardless of
whether you succeeded or failed, as well as whether you're a perfectionist or
not."
"Really?"
Feeling interested, I stretched myself forward and asked, "Then why am I
angry?"
"It's hard for me to explain. Though I may have a rich vocabulary, my
knowledge of useful words is rather limited."
"So you know a lot of useless terms?"