Philip Y. Kao PhD thesis - Research@StAndrews:FullText
Philip Y. Kao PhD thesis - Research@StAndrews:FullText
Philip Y. Kao PhD thesis - Research@StAndrews:FullText
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Betsy and I were subject to Tacoma Pastures’s care plan, which was tailored to her<br />
wishes and ‘needs.’ We were also subject to the tyranny of time. I had twenty-five<br />
minutes to get Betsy out of bed in the morning, cleaned, changed, dressed, and<br />
presentable for the dining room. Our routine was linked up with other care plans and<br />
integrated into a larger system of monitoring and control. Not only was there a checklist<br />
that each caregiver had to hand in by the middle of their shift to the head nurse, but after<br />
taking care of each resident, the caregiver had to log on to a computer and chart what<br />
they did and saw according to a set survey. Betsy and I were inscribed in an<br />
organizational practice with rules and objectives, yet we found ways to express our<br />
shared grievances. Short of throwing her faeces at us, Betsy was an expert at resistance.<br />
She would rephrase our questions in new contexts, and would oftentimes hold firm to<br />
her wheelchair when she did not want to go somewhere or do something. Her physical<br />
strength was still intact and this allowed her to manage her space with stubbornness<br />
and pride. Betsy would often stick her tongue out at me, and I would do the same to her.<br />
She would laugh, and then with more persuasion and jokes, I would be able to convince<br />
her to allow me to give her a shower. My joking with her was not intended as a taunt, but<br />
rather as a way of conveying to her that I felt her frustration. My intuition tells me that<br />
she knew this, because she allowed me to help her with things that she never allowed<br />
other caregivers to do. Part of this joking and resistance on my part wasn’t so much<br />
about gaining Betsy’s cooperation, but was rather an instance of self-demeaning. I often<br />
found (with much disappointment and surprise) that I was impatient, frustrated and<br />
overly physical with my residents. I was disgusted at myself, and when I was confronted<br />
with being just a human, another regular caregiver, the abject nature of this led me to<br />
champion Betsy’s rebellions. Not only did I sympathize with Betsy, but I also lived<br />
vicariously through her, especially when she told off the management with great vigour<br />
and conviction.<br />
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