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Falconer 150<br />
shook a little at this extraneous and unnatural pain and imagined<br />
the vaccine coursing through his blood. “It can’t be true,” said<br />
Farragut, “it can’t be true.” “Count the days,” said the orderly,<br />
“just count the days. Move along.” Farragut was stunned. He went<br />
over to the door, where Chicken was waiting. Farragut’s singular<br />
smallness of mind was illustrated by the fact that he resented that<br />
the Department of Correction had been successful where the three<br />
blue-ribbon drug cures he had taken had failed. The Department<br />
of Correction could not be right. He could not congratulate<br />
himself on having mastered his addiction, since he had not been<br />
aware of it. Then an image of his family, his hated origins, loomed<br />
up in his mind. Had that antic cast—that old man in his catboat,<br />
that woman pumping gas in her opera cloak, his pious brother—<br />
had they conveyed to him some pure, crude and lasting sense of<br />
perseverance? “I made a big decision,” said Chicken, hooking his<br />
arm in Farragut’s. “I made a very big decision. I’m going to sell my<br />
gitfiddle.” Farragut felt only the insignificance of Chicken’s<br />
decision in the light of what he had just been told; that, and the<br />
fact that Chicken’s hold on his arm seemed desperate. Chicken<br />
seemed truly feeble and old. Farragut could not tell him that he<br />
was clean. “Why are you selling your gitfiddle, Chicken?” he asked.<br />
“Why are you going to do a thing like that?” “Three guesses,” said<br />
Chicken. Farragut had to put an arm around him to get him up<br />
the slope of the tunnel and into the block.<br />
It was very quiet. Farragut’s fever reminded him of the bliss of<br />
drugs, something he seemed to have forsworn. He was torpid.<br />
Then a strange thing happened. He saw, at the open door of his<br />
cell, a young man with summery hair and immaculate clericals,<br />
holding a little tray with a silver chalice and ciborium. “I’ve come<br />
to celebrate the Holy Eucharist,” he said. Farragut got out of bed.<br />
The stranger came into the cell. He had a very cleanly smell,<br />
Farragut noticed as he approached him and asked, “Shall I kneel?”<br />
“Yes, please,” said the priest. Farragut knelt on the worn concrete,<br />
that surface of some old highway. The thought that these might be